Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

We get on each other's nerves now. Believe me, it's mutual; but if I had been oriented and trained properly, I could leave you alone. It's fine that you want to change things, but cutting my hours out of the blue for no reason was the WRONG way to go about it. You don't have to love all of your employees, but you are required to treat them professionally.

I feel super fucking anxious. I want to fucking die.
UGH, just have to stay on for another hour or so and then I can go read or something.

Going crazy today, I don't know what is wrong with me.

Added: Pandora is getting on my nerves!

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Does anyone actually care about me? What's the point anymore?

[Kate*]

If I can't request that online WHY IS IT AN OPTION?! and why did it take two days for you to tell me that?!

I feel like I'm on the edge of breaking down again.

I feel discouraged and like a failure.
I want to fucking die!
I want to fucking die!

I think I might have to reschedule my eye exam in case I have to take that exam.

[nothereanymore]

I can't explain to anyone what goes through my head. They don't understand that I don't lack outside motivation. I lack inside motivation. I know I need money. But I know all my problems could be solved by killing myself.

I feel so overwhelmed.
I feel like this new thing is fucking stupid!

[Calaer]

I hate that I let you treat me the way you have. I know it's my own fault for allowing this. I'm just glad you aren't in my life anymore, and that I don't have to deal with the way you treat me and my family.

I wish it was as easy for me as it is for them.

I am struggling so much.
Feel like such a fucking failure.

I hate being exhausted all the time.

I feel like a terrible piece of shit.

[Markus]

I need to start thinking of ideas for people to do on Induction day!!

[Kate*]

Part of the reason I don't want to admit that I love this job is the 90 day thing. I don't want to get comfortable until I know whether they'll keep me. I could get fired and never see it coming

I want to fucking die.

[MWF]

Oh crap. I unintentionally asked out my dream girl assuming shed say no but she said yes, and now I have no fucking clue what to do.
Actually, this might be in the wrong thread.

I wish they'd fucking stop living in the past, because I'm trying to move past all the things they made me screw up in my relationship with two certain people.

Rapid cycling. Wheeeee!

[Resilient]

What is wrong with me?

[Kate*]

I can see that this is going to be an ongoing issue. COMMUNICATE for fuck sake and when you approve a schedule adjustment HONOR the damn thing. Now I get to bug you AGAIN, and we both know how much you love dealing with me.

It all seems pointless

[nothereanymore]

how hard is it to help someone out... how many places do I have to share it, and how many times...

you don't understand. you have no compassion.

nothing like feeling trapped in a relationship. if I didn't want to be intimate he wouldn't want to be with me. and I don't. I honestly don't. there's no pleasure in it at all. I'm just a slut. a sex doll. a money hungry incompetent needy sex doll. no more. if I were celibate we would never have started dating. I hate this. but I don't want to break up with him because he's got so many other things on his plate.

I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to kill myself.

Today is one of those days where I say "what is life worth living for?"

Sometimes I feel like such a shitty person and have such terrible fucking thoughts

[Kate*]

I feel like I nag you every time I see you, but this one is your fault.

Have a headache and feel inadequate. Go me

I'm at my lowest weight since I was 12 and you've finally noticed I lost weight? It took you this long? Really?

I feel like I am a piece of fucking trash.

I feel like no one will EVER take a chance on interviewing me. Hope all the work I put into that one particular application pays off...I honestly doubt it will though.

[nothereanymore]

I feel like I'm fifteen again. What the fuck.

[Thinking]

its okay to fail, i still have one month of exams to fail... well i am a failure so its only natural to fail.

i dont know what it means by failure anymore over the years... nothing i had done made me happy or satisfied... i didnt work hard enough so i am a failure.

I feel fucking worthless

Tired, I hate that coffee pretty much does nothing for me most of the time.

I am never going to get a job.

[Abbidabbidoo]

This fucking headache is killing me.

You don't have to be such a smug cunt about it.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I can’t sleep. It’s 2:30 and we’re leaving by 4:45 to miss the lines.

I feel so damn depressed

[Abbidabbidoo]

OK here is my rant for right now. My Mom took me and Jackson to a Clothing Store called Kohls a bit ago for me to shop for some clothes. For those who don't know what Kohls is it is a Department Store that sells clothes from kids to teens to adults. So my Mom went to look at the adult women's section while I took Jackson in his car seat carrying case with me to the teen section to look at some tops. While looking at some stuff I noticed a Mom with her teen daughter around my age looking at my clothing and I didn't really pay much attention to them. As they were leaving and walked behind me I heard the Mom say to her daughter, " God, I am thankful you aren't a Slut like that girl with a baby." I was so mad and it took everything in me from calling her a Bitch and telling her off. She has no clue who I am and that I had sex 1 time in my entire life. Yes it was when I was 14 and that is very young, but I was exploring and really liked this guy and we did it. We also used protection and the condom broke while inside of me and yes I got pregnant. I have never done anything sexual other than that one time other than kissing boys. So there is this ADULT sending this nasty message to her daughter who is probably one of those girls who goes off to school and says nasty things about other girls and bullies other girls because she hears it from her own Mother. It is sad. I didn't say a word and just picked up my baby boy and went to find my Mom who I didn't say a word to because she would have flipped out and tried to track down this Bitch in the store, but I had to get this off of my chest because I am not a slut and it makes me mad that someone especially an adult who doesn't even know me sees me with a baby and thinks I must have spread my legs to many boys. Sorry for the long rant.