Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Thinking]

I am exhausted in every possible way.

[Everglow.]

When there are fireworks and all you can think about is how you hope it isn't a bomb.

Oh, no, seeing a four year old being fed like that totally did not make me puke the last bite of my meal.

[Kate*]

I hope it's just because you're busy and not because it's lost in the mail. Technically you have my address wrong, but I've gotten everything else you sent.

The fact that she's not going to pursue a lawsuit doesn't erase the fact that she has grounds for one.

When does healthy boundary setting become immaturity? And who is less mature, the person being avoided for their impossible, immature behavior, or the one who refuses to put up with it?

Survive what I have and you can judge how I did it. I'm not "wallowing", I'm recovering and rebuilding. This did NOT come with a fucking manual. Don't judge what you'll never understand!

[nothereanymore]

Will I ever stop having dreams about you? The world may never know

[Calaer]

I wish it wasn't so rainy and gross today. I'd love to be able to chill outside when we go to Dad's for this cookout.

[Starseeker]

Fuck, I've had this problem for a long time and I was certain it would've been solved for good by now. Seems I was very wrong, and what makes me worried is that time passing doesn't help me solve it at all.

I am scared you are going to leave me.

[FallonRose]

Had another roommate move in and he and her fuck buddy didn't get home until 2:30 (which woke me up) and proceeded to be up all night. It wouldn't have been so bad had they not spent the entire time in the living room because my room is right next to the living room and I could hear them laughing and coughing loudly. While I was able to go back to sleep the majority of the time, I still don't appreciate being woken up 3 times over the course of 4 hours. What if I had to work today?? Where is the common decency in some people now...

[nothereanymore]

It's a shame I can't get a sugar daddy to pay my debts or for the IOP because my parents would DEFINITELY find out.

[Fanatic]

Kaleb, you self-centered psychopath. I fucking forgave you and come around to stab me in the back again? I hope when you die, you die in the most inhumane possible. Because you are already so fucking dead to me. You bile scum.

[nothereanymore]

If I for any reason don't want this job my dad is gonna think I'm being lazy. Or too picky than I can afford to be right now. And I hate the position that puts me in. If I have to answer the phone more often than once in a while I don't wanna do it. If I have to deal with a ton of people I don't wanna do it.

[Calaer]

Lately I've been feeling pretty crappy and I have no idea why, but I know I don't really want to deal with it.

[Clarent]

I fully expect my sleeping pattern to go to hell again.

And everything's so fucking expensive...

[Starseeker]

It's so senseless! Everybody's telling me that if I just do tons of tests I will eventually get better, but you know what? YOUR ADVICE IS PURE SHIT!

Step away from the joint, pull the stick out of your ass, and re-evaluate your life.

[Everglow.]

Why does everything have to be an attack? Not everything I have to say is an attack on you. Not every conversation has to be a row. I can't stand talking to you these days. Genuinely don't remember the last time I messaged you and didn't get a hostile response.

[Kate*]

Not TH related

I guess I'm not one to talk because we have the same condition, but some of these people are so fucking insensitive and/or stupid and/or immature, I can't stand them.

It shouldn't, but sometimes it does and not because you're not willing to work hard enough for it, but because life isn't fair and sometimes you can't do everything you want regardless of your own efforts or desire for things.

[Starseeker]

I'm sorry I'm sick again. I'm sorry I make you spend money on treatment. I'm sorry I'm so nerve-wrecking to you. I'm sorry I don't have good grades and don't get average scores at exams. I'm sorry I'm so ungrateful. I'm sorry you work every day so that I can live decently and I do nothing and don't even study. I'm sorry I can't draw nor write nor play the guitar. I'm sorry I can't focus on anything. I'm sorry I disappoint you even at something as stupid and little as ice skating. I'm sorry I'm not even good at one subject I used to think I knew well. I'm sorry I disappoint you every day.

[Kintsukuroi.]

Ugh. It finally finished. That was such a waste of my evening. Love waiting from 8-1:30 for you and your friends

[nothereanymore]

The world is killing me

[Calaer]

I hate how restless I've been. I'm just ready to get a good nights sleep for once.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

No one cares about me.....

[Everglow.]

Gotta get over these moods. It's nobody's fault that I'm wound up. Stop taking it out on other people, come on now.

I'm so tired. Need more sleep. I hope I can sleep more tonight.

[nothereanymore]

I want people to stop criticizing me but then again I'm not doing anything good for anyone to recognize. I'm tired of being pestered to do all this shit that I don't want to do. Jfc I don't wanna live. Don't you get it? I don't want to get a job. I don't want to get my license. I don't want to eat better and sleep better. I want to die. And I still honestly can't wrap my head around the fact that YOU ARE JUST NOW HEARING ME WHEN I SAY THIS IS E V E R Y S I N G L E D A Y.

[Starseeker]

I'm fed up with everything. I don't want to face it anymore.

[MyVisionIsDying]

Somehow stood on a coffee table leg that was ya know... vertical and hurt a toe which feels like how I hurt the one when I feel down the stairs but not as bad.

[Kate*]

You have NO IDEA how hard I'm resisting reacting to you right now. This "tough love" comparing pain and "snap out of it" shit doesn't work on us, Down playing the effects of a DISABILITY and calling MENTAL ILLNESS "just life" is despicable, but the last thing I want is you to come after me next. But NO our struggle isn't just like everyone else's and just because we're depressed does NOT mean we aren't "dealing with it" Just SHUT UP. You're not better than any of us because of the "choices" you make. I make the choice to ignore her, you could've done the same thing. When it collapses your entire fucking life through no fault of your own and you've managed against your better judgement NOT to kill yourself get back to me!!!!!

And why do I want it back right now?! Over two years and the desire is still there. It's going to be with me for life, isn't it?

[nothereanymore]

No motivation.

[Everglow.]

Nobody at work told me I couldn't use my discount in certain stores. Thought I'd be paying £59 for my first ever prescription sunglasses and instead I've ended up paying £118. Thanks for that.

[Starseeker]

I want to die.

[Calaer]

I hate how I've been feeling lately. I'm not sure if I'm sick, or what, but It's driving me insane.

[nothereanymore]

I don't know why I've lost my appetite. But I'm losing weight and dehydrated and so. frickin. tired. And that's not good. And I kinda don't wanna do anything about it because I wanna die.

I was looking forward to this period of life. I thought things would change. I thought life would be different for me. Well, it is. It's much worse now than it ever was. Thank you, life.

[Everglow.]

The washing machine has broken less than a week before I go on holiday. And I have no clothes to wear. And it's 2 buses to my mums.
Wonderful.

[nothereanymore]

If I hold out this will kill me. Woot.

[Calaer]

I hate that things are the way they are. I'm so ready for things to get easier for us, and I have a feeling the hard times are just at the beginning rather than the end.

I want to just be me. I don't want to be so angry and upset.

What the hell am I doing taking this class? I don't understand a thing and I am so overwhelmed.

I feel so stupid.