Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Chai.]

I still have 9 more days of studying left before finals are over and I get a vacation. I am already at the end of my ability to handle stress and the workload. Now to hold on for 9 more days!

[MyVisionIsDying]

I feel sick. My head hurts. I'm really scared, really anxious. I think I'm gonna zone out or throw up or something.

[nothereanymore]

Say it with me: I am not pregnant. I have had three periods since the last time I had sex. No babies. No.
if I am/ever was pregnant I fucked UP. I've gotten wasted three times and smoked weed and I've taken mental health meds all this time

But tbh if it had to happen I wouldn't mind having his baby

[Chai.]

I am panicky and thinking of worst case scenarios! Why!

[Calaer]

I hate that I can't get you out of my head. I just want you out of my life.

[Everglow.]

Pooch is going to his new home today/tomorrow

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Just breathe and it will be ok. The surgery will be over soon and she will be ok.

[nothereanymore]

How cruel would it be to be pregnant, my health being what it is. I can't even take care of myself. Loooord help me I don't want to wait until Friday to ask for my stepmom to buy a test but I'm broke and Friday will be five days post missed period sooo I'm just gonna sit here with my fucking head spinning waiting for The Shining to start

I'm so energetic now but I am dreading the crash that is bound to come in the next few hours. It'll suck majorly.

[Celyn]

Pretending to not let anything get to me...wonder how long this will last...

Try to stay as detached as possible. I don't like this program.

[.Brittany.]

Why am I doing this to myself..

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I can't believe we are fighting, her surgery went well. Why are you being mean to me!!

[nothereanymore]

I'm scared. I can't be pregnant. Please. Cravings, food aversion, breast tenderness and swelling, change in body odor... I don't notice a change in my body other than my breasts. If I am I'm at least twelve weeks along. That. Just. Terrifies. Me.

[nothereanymore]

I keep feeling little pangs. Feels like my ovaries. So here's hoping it's just cysts fucking up my cycle and not the presence of a human because apparently cysts can do that.
I'm gonna feel so stupid for this if I'm not pregnant. I'm just scared. I did a lot of things pregnant people shouldn't do.

[daisy_jam]

LOADS AND LOADS OF PAIN!
A broken hand/wrist is not bloody fun

[Calaer]

I hate how you treat us, and then expect us to be there for you, or want to be around you. You seriously don't talk to us at all, like ever, then you want to just show up and pretend like everything is okay, when it's not.

[Everglow.]

I can't have a life because I have to stay in with the dog. Even though I'm not the only person who lives here. I'm the only one walking him though, and I'm the one worrying that he's got into the bin and eaten something.

I hate that I get out of breath and in pain after walking for twenty minutes.

[Everglow.]

My day every day:
-Wake up
-Sit alone
-Walk dog
-Sit alone
-Walk dog
-Sit alone
-People come home
-Eat alone
-Ask someone else to walk dog
-Sleep

So bored of being on my own now.

[nothereanymore]

I'm an idiot

[nothereanymore]

It's not a self fulfilling prophecy it is what it is I'm fucking worthless

[Kate*]

I REALLY don't want to do this tomorrow. But, right now I'm too tired to care

Everything about this feels wrong, but I can't tell if that's because it is wrong, or if it's just not what I want.

[Everglow.]

When your lecturer tells you that you didn't understand the case studies, your references, the explanations or..you know..anything. Cheers lad. Cheers.

[Calaer]

I hate that I'm going to have to make this choice. I want to be there to support you, and it's going to be hard to have to deal with this, but I think we can do it, and I just hope that everything works out the way it's supposed to.

[FallonRose]

Of course I would get sick the day after I graduate. Doesn't help that I'm missing 2 days of work too, I really need the money.

[nothereanymore]

Like a Stone was one of the first songs I ever loved. I'm heartbroken that Chris Cornell has passed away. He's suspected to have killed himself, and that hurts. To be fifty-two and sober... just to end your life... makes me wonder if it's worth the effort. I don't want to fight for the next thirty-two years just to give in and die in pain. I'd rather die now.

[nothereanymore]

Sorry staying alive is such a fucking hassle for you. But it would be hard for you to deal with me killing myself, right?

[Kate*]

Yeah, just what I needed to see, someone around my age who killed himself over our shared diagnosis, from an ADVOCACY organization. Fucking awesome

How wide exactly is my "area" because if I have to go to the address I'm seeing, it's 2 hours away. That's not even almost going to happen.

OMG NO In theory I should give you more than one session, but I don't think so. I feel so much worse after that that I don't even want to bother trying with someone else. And I know better!

I just feel like I want to cry. Everything is going wrong.

[Everglow.]

Such a hard thing to leave that dog at the rescue today. I know it's the right thing to do but I'm going to miss that stupid pooch so much. </3

[Starseeker]

Everybody's looking away and I know why.

[Everglow.]

Feeling pretty damn lonely tonight.

I'm sick AGAIN? Good gosh. PHP is going to drop me from the program if I keep missing days. I bet they won't even believe I'm sick, but I have got a 101F fever. Blah.

Edit: I'm scared. The fever is getting much higher. I don't want to have to go to the hospital tonight and drag S along with me.

[Calaer]

I've been so sick to my stomach lately, and it's starting to get annoying.

[Kate*]

You were right:

Sometimes it's not me because ITS YOU

And you did get me to do things in less than 5 sessions. You convinced me in less than one, to never go back to you. Good job And while I'm at it, your theory is bullshit. Watch me go back to you anyway, because that's what I do. I'm over being told to "take responsibility" that isn't mine and being blamed for "failing" when it wasn't even almost my fault

No, you can't "Do anything you set your mind to" technically, no one can. You've had a different experience, but you will hit road blocks, you will and the fact that you can work full time doesn't make you better than those of us who can't.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I'm getting sick.

[Thinking]

Emotions are stupid, unproductive, inefficient and unoptimized. Its is damaging me.

Get rid of stupid emotions!!

[nothereanymore]

It's never gonna stop

[Starseeker]

I don't believe everybody's turning away from me because there's something wrong with all of them. There must be something wrong with me.

[Celyn]

I don't want to go. I have stuff to do. I'm tired. I need a shower, I really can't be bothered to go. Why do things have to spring up like this?