Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Phantom_Girl]

Why doesn't anyone like me, I just want to be loved

I'm really sick of the snow and cold weather. Cannot wait for my vacation to begin Wednesday!

Despite what they said they'd do my doctor's office didn't fax over the lab results to the treatment center. In addition, the treatment center hasn't requested a form for my wound treatment plan from the hospital yet. I was hoping to go into treatment early next week but it's looking like it's going to be later in the week.

[.Brittany.]

All I want to do is break down and cry..

I'm not that strong anymore..

[nothereanymore]

Broken ...

[roseegirl]

I just want to drink this pain away...

or myself away

[Chai.]

Nope, nobody cares. It's just a matter of sucking it up and going along alone.

[Calaer]

I love how you can walk in to my house and disrespect me, yet I'm the one in the wrong...

[.Brittany.]

Still not doing well today.. I think I'm just going to hide for the day.

maybe with my pills and blades

[MWF]

Its often the little things that make me want to bash my head against a wall.

Wow, okay...I write a really open, compelling post about my mental health asking for my friends' support and nobody says a damn word. Thanks a lot, guys. I'm glad you care so much. Good to know who my real friends are at least.

[roseegirl]

i cant do this alone.... yet no one care that im alone

[Chai.]

"Ignore the cries for help."

"What cries for help?"

"Umm, nothing. I am fine."

[nothereanymore]

Can't sleep. Can't fall back into this pattern. Can't can't can't. I didn't do ANYTHING yesterday and it was supposed to be better but it wasn't and I'm not feeling well. I'm not feeling well at all. I'm emptying. I'm in danger.

[Kate*]

I was hoping to do this online myself and save $1400 and A LOT of headaches, but it may not be possible. This looks harder than I thought. Still an option though.


"Don't say bitch"
I'm a grown woman
I'm not saying it to her face
She's being one
I know you agree with me
I know she's your mother, but that doesn't mean she's exempt when she deserves it. STOP defending her when she acts like a fucking toddler!!!! The universe does NOT revolve around her, and refusing to teach her that won't change it.

[Everglow.]

What's the point in it all.

[Calaer]

I'm so ready for snow, and for you to stop being such a pain in the ass.

[Everglow.]

Can barely speak to people I'm so upset and stuck. I wish this would all be over. I hate everything right now.

[MWF]

Alright, time to chase guys again, this whole girl thing is working out just as well as it always has...

[MWF]

I am SO fucking fucked in school. If I was gonna try to get a girlfriend or boyfriend, forget about it. If I had any hope of passing above a 2.0, forget about that too.

[.Brittany.]

Normally I can handle episodes of TV shows without getting triggered..

This past weeks Grey's episode was a huge trigger.. ugh..

[daisy_jam]

My mother is the worst person when it comes to gifts. Every Valentine's Day, my dad goes out of his budget to buy something really special for my mother and everytime dad gives it to her. She cries and throws a tantrum. Ugh! I honestly hate my mother for this. Birthdays, anniversaries, Christmases, she always fucking cries.

I've maxed out my capacity for stress.

I don't want to start self-harming again but if this gets much worse I might.

You fat fucking bitch. You just HAD to go eat those, didn't you? Well, congrats, you're over your calorie goal for the day. You have no fucking self-control, you stupid idiot. None at all. You're a failure.

Wish I could cut...

[MWF]

Yaaaaaaay the day I hate above all other days

[nothereanymore]

Tired of being alone

[Calaer]

It's frustrating how you can sit there and treat me like trash, yet tell everyone I'm the horrible one, even when I welcome you in to my home, feed you, and allow you to stay the night..right..

[Kate*]

Mental illness is not a "pity party", and suicide is A LOT more complicated than a "pretty bad choice." You have a large following, you need to educate yourself. The message you're spreading is dangerous!

I have no idea where you got the idea that you're the center of the fucking universe, but you need to GET OVER IT! Pretty much everybody admits to spoiling me as a kid and I didn't develop this entitled, demanding, whining way of existence. He's the only one who ever said it, and I've reduced most of what he told me to crap.

She recovered after she realized she was "playing the victim", I only started recovering in earnest (2 years sooner, thank you very much) after realizing that I WAS one. There's a HUGE difference between playing a victim and actually being one. The fact that you blamed me for everything didn't make it all my fault. Just because you said I had other options, doesn't make it true. Even if you meant it to be in my best interest, that doesn't mean you did it right or didn't do me harm in the process. I WAS A VICTIM! I will never be ashamed to admit it, or shamed into staying quiet about it by strangers who decide without knowing a damn thing about it, that I'm "playing a victim." I won't.

Learn the difference between a debate and an attack. Even when I engage the ass holes against my better judgement, I'm never nasty. Smart ass, absolutely, but never nasty.

You get to do what I desperately wanted, you don't get to complain that it sucks. I would give anything to be doing it right now. Part of me still believes I should be.

Sure, twist the knife a little more...yeah, that's it. There. Right there. That's my heart. Now why don't you stab it viciously? What more harm could it do, right?

And on Valentine's Day, too. How ironic.

I guess it's good to know there's a limit. I'll keep that in mind for the future.

[daisy_jam]

I just want the job interview to go well. I can't handle it if i fail it

Can't sleep. Mind is racing a million mile a minute.

Ugh, why tonight?! I have a long day tomorrow!

I am dying to run out the door but she'll call 911 if I do.

[nothereanymore]

You have no idea how quickly I will lose my shit on you if you try to make me do something I don't want to do. This healing process is not about you.

[jamdoughnut]

im really scared to post this but if your reading this i really need help
my parents have taken everything from me and i have no one to go to and no where to turn and i cant take it i have to get out. i dont feel safe in that house and if i dont get out soon theyre either going to kill me or im going to lose my mind. please help me i cant reach anyone else who can help me and im really scared im scared theyre going to find this and if they do im dead please please help

I'm a fat freak.

[daisy_jam]

I feel so empty. I feel worthless. I feel shit.

Too warm for me!

Please don't tell me I can't go because we can't get a flight. Please.

[.Brittany.]

Why do my friends never want to see me..

[Calaer]

I hate that you act the way you do.