Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Calaer]

It's slightly frustrating how we have to wait so long for all of this to happen.

I want this fucking thing off my arm *now!*

[Celyn]

Why do I do this? I know it's not getting me anywhere apart from making me feel angry, bitter and negative, yet I can't help it. Wasted another day yet again.

How have you not picked up on the hint that I don't want to be around anyone right now?

[nothereanymore]

"Write what your mom would say to this letter."

How do I write her losing her shit on me?????? Or better yet, how do I write that she wouldn't reply, she'd just get pissed and refuse to speak to me or deal with it.

[Clarent]

I've reached my limit.

Headaches are no fun.

I can't believe I broke down and ate. So much for not being fat.

[Mrs.Butterfly]

Why do you have to do this tonight?!?!!!

I can't take this.

[.Brittany.]

Can I please just give up? I'm not strong anymore..

[daisy_jam]

I'm so close to relapsing. I'm so sick of getting rejected for jobs. I really want to cut tbh.

[Kate*]

This didn't break me because I "chose" for it to, and my inability to recover fully (or maybe ever), is due to my real limitations and the complete lack of options that they leave me with. Obviously, I shouldn't have fought so hard to stay. It's not like any of it ended up worth it.

You ruined my life, fucked me up, and got away with it. Good job!

[Everglow.]

I want to disappear. I am so so tired of crying.

[Calaer]

I hate that you expect so much from me. I try my hardest to get your approval and all you do is treat me like trash.

The test results will take a few days to come in. I guess I don't get to go to residential by the end of this week.

I don't like that I can't go into work tomorrow. My co-worker makes me feel so happy and useful.

Computer? I know you think it's funny to freeze up to the point where I have to restart it, but it's not funny so stop please. Thanks.

[Everglow.]

I miss you. I wish so much that you were back. God sake. I just wish you were here. I love you to much.

[MWF]

Worst day overall I've had in a long fucking time, but life goes on.

[Everglow.]

Don't know where I stand anymore. This is horrible.

I don't want to eat what you tell me to.

I'm upset I'm not getting much of a chance to restrict before going into treatment.

[jamdoughnut]

for the love of god someone please help me i cant keep doing this im risking the little bit of freedom i do have if they see this no one will hear from me again theyll kill me id run but i dont have anywhere to go im literally trapped and i cant take it anymore someone please please help mee

Why did I do that? Why why why did I do that?

Good gosh, Jordan, it's *always* a bad idea to message your ex. You're so stupid.

[MWF]

I always knew my parents did an awful job teaching me about sex (aka barely teaching me about sex), but my mom told my dad not to ever talk about masturbation with me, and I learned how to do it wrong. Yeah, there's a wrong way to do it, where you basically just hump the bed. Its extremely addictive and has an extremely high rate of sexual disorders including delayed ejaculation, ED, and anorgasmia (not being able to orgasm by sex). Now I haven't had sex with a girl yet (fingers crossed that it ever happens), but Goddammit. Good fucking parenting mom, look at what your religious fundamentalism might do to me.
I'm never gonna forgive her for this.

I am pretty Damn worthless.

[MWF]

Im never the one to say it, but I need to get fucking laid...

[nothereanymore]

I don't know what I'll do if I don't get in. I'm stupid for not having a plan B but there isn't much else for me to do at this point. No other route. also looking for a valid excuse to hang myself but that's beside the point

[Calaer]

I hate that it's so rainy out. If I have to deal with less than ideal weather, I at least want it to be snow. Also, the flu is going around pretty badly, and I'm scared to death I'm going to have to worry about poor little Ava getting it when she is out and about with Gymnastics or at the library.

[Everglow.]

Managed to bruise my head from punching it. Class.

[Kate*]

I tend to have unpopular opinions, but I go out of my way to express them respectfully. If you think I'm "attacking" you, the world must be a horrific place. There's a difference between being a victim and only playing one. It would serve you well to learn it.

Everyone loves it so much, it doesn't feel like work. I'll never have that. I will work my ass off (and probably hate) everything I'm stuck doing. I was so close to having it all.

Researching what I thought would be my best option, and I'm either bored or completely lost. Exactly what I was afraid of.

There's a difference between refusing to "walk on eggshells" and being COMPLETELY dismissive of the sensitivities of others. LEARN IT It's a fucking BALANCE. No one should expect to be coddled, and no need to be an asshole.

Bashing the next generation already dude?! You know our elders say the same shit about us, right? We should be the bigger people.

I want to do more, but it's requiring me to do something it won't let me do. And I REALLY don't want to bother them again, at least until my first one is out there.

You left me with SO much damage, I don't even know what the worst of it is yet.

And you're convinced I've healed from this, so we're not even going to deal with it? Another case for a conversation or a new therapist. Granted I brought a lot to you, but if I could've handled it on my own, I would've.

[Everglow.]

There is no coming back from this mate. This isn't my fault. You chose to rub salt in the wound.

I'm ugly when I cry.

[roseegirl]

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!

How dare you. How fucking dare you, you goddamn stupid bitch. You think you can stop me? Please. You will never be able to keep me from my goals. Never. I regret ever even asking your opinion in the first place because I don't fucking need it. I'll be fine by myself. Consider me off this "team."

[roseegirl]

Why does no one want me to be happy

[.Brittany.]

Took my sleeping pills at 10:45 pm. It is now 2:00am and I am still awake..

[Calaer]

Come on snow~

[Everglow.]

This is ridiculous. I dont know what to do. I don't bloody know what to do.

[roseegirl]

I just want it all fixed

[.Brittany.]

Another sleepless night..