Song/Quote of the day!

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.


I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

[.Brittany.]

Hittin' me up late always be blowin' up my phone
I'm lying awake wonderin' why I'm still alone
Lord knows I'm sinning, please forgive me for my lust
Sending pictures back and forth
Babe, I'm craving your touch

Lord, I know I let You down
But somehow, I will make You proud
I'll turn this sinking ship around

All in. I’m all in. No more one foot in the world of anorexia and one foot in the world of recovery. One way or another, I have to go all in.

[Starseeker]

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's only me, and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one, and I walk alone


(Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams)

You've caused all this pain
And you proudly shame
Your whole families name


Let this be our little secret
No one needs to know were feeling
Higher and higher and higher
Higher and higher and higher


But I feel alive and I feel it in me
Up and up I keep on climbing
Higher and higher and higher
Higher and higher and higher


Mother I can tell what you've been thinking
Staring at the stars on your ceiling
Thinking once there was a power that you were wielding
And now I've hit the mark
Stabbing at the dark
And I cannot help but ignore the people staring at my scars

Well I just wish we could go back one more time and begin it,
Back before I lost myself somewhere, somewhere in it.

I've been stuck now so long,
We just got the start wrong,
One more last try,
I'ma get the ending right,
You can't stop this, and I must insist,
That you haven't had enough,
You haven't had enough,
Stuck now so long,
We just got the start wrong,
No more last place,
You better get your story straight,
You can't stop this, and I must insist,
That you haven't had enough,
You haven't had enough,

I still need you, need you, don't mean to tease you,
If you want me, I'll come back and meet you,
Whisper, whisper, you must admit you want it,
You, you want it,

Well I just wish we could go back one more time and begin it,
Back before I lost myself somewhere, somewhere in it.

We've been stuck now so long,
We just got the start wrong,
One more last try,

I'ma get the ending right,
You can't stop this, and I must insist,
That you haven't had enough,
You haven't had enough,
Stuck now so long,
We just got the start wrong,
No more last place,
You better get your story straight,
You can't stop this, and I must insist,
That you haven't had enough,
You haven't had enough,

[Starseeker]

Sacred minds
We build a new pleasure-dome here
Xanadu
My Xanadu
My Xanadu

(Blind Guardian - Sacred Mind)

[Storyteller.]

so discredit me and take it all
because it seems i'm destined to fall
disparage me and make the call
deep down i know it's not my fault
i'm not to blame
how could i ever have asked for this?
so do your worst, i'll stand up tall
and i'll never feel guilty at all

And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are


We grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio

[TheAtomicBlade]

Memories is all that's left behind
As I lay and wait to die
Little do they know
That I hear their choice of life
End it now, it is the only way
Too cruel, that is what they say
Release me from this lonely world
There is no hope - Why don't you
Pull the plug
Let me pass away
Pull the plug
Don't want to life this way

Triggering content ED


I lock the door
Turn all the water on
And bury that sound
So no one hears anything anymore
Mirror lie to me, tell me you can see
Maybe you won't be able to recognize me now
I know you can feel all the things you steal
And you're taking, you're taking it

Feeling so easy
Make me skin and bones
I'm always on my knees for you
You break like it's even
When you're leaving it thin,
Where the hell have you been?

[Storyteller.]

hurt people hurt people.

i know i can't blame
everything on you.

you did what you learned to do
from someone who's just as hurt as you.

i know you did the best
you knew to do.
and i know i wanna do better,
be better than you.

but i wish
i could take you inside
and you could see
the damage
first hand.

"Courage is like a muscle. We strengthen it by use.” — Ruth Gordon

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I'm meant to be, this is me

Why are you so ashamed to call me your sister?

[TheAtomicBlade]

Goinh back to the corner
Where i first saw you

[Starseeker]

Nevermind the end
Fool them all
Fear the demon in disguise
Keep your secret inside
Let's move on, it's time
A thousand years gone by
The pleasure-dome
What will we hear
And what will we see


All a lie
There's no boat
There's no river
No shore
Journey's over


Sacred mind
We build a new pleasure-dome here
Xanadu
My Xanadu
My Xanadu



(Blind Guardian - Sacred Mind)

[TheAtomicBlade]

Angel of death- Slayer

"Truth is everybody is going to hurt you: you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."--- Bob Marley

[hocus pocus]

lost myself again and i feel unsafe

[Insomniac~]

I can't love when I can't even love myself
Things I would rather be thoughts at the back of my head
But I'm addicted to hurting
And I got these lungs
And I spent too many late nights
Thinking a hole in the earth

[Kintsukuroi.]

When everything around me starts to fall
I rise up again to the call
We're all just a little bit broken (yeah)
We're all just a little bit hurt (yeah)
We've all got wounds half open (yeah)
We all can use a little work
A little work

First, accept sadness. Realize that without losing, winning isn't so great. - Alyssa Milano

I met you in the dark, you lit me up
You made me feel as though I was enough
We danced the night away, we drank too much
I held your hair back when
You were throwing up


Then you smiled over your shoulder
For a minute, I was stone-cold sober
I pulled you closer to my chest
And you asked me to stay over
I said, I already told ya
I think that you should get some rest


I knew I loved you then
But you'd never know
'Cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go
I know I needed you
But I never showed
But I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go



I'll wake you up with some breakfast in bed
I'll bring you coffee with a kiss on your head
And I'll take the kids to school
Wave them goodbye
And I'll thank my lucky stars for that night


When you looked over your shoulder
For a minute, I forget that I'm older
I wanna dance with you right now
Oh, and you look as beautiful as ever
And I swear that everyday you'll get better
You make me feel this way somehow


I'm so in love with you
And I hope you know
Darling your love is more than worth its weight in gold
We've come so far my dear
Look how we've grown
And I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go


I wanna live with you
Even when we're ghosts
'Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most


I'm gonna love you till
My lungs give out
I promise till death we part like in our vows
So I wrote this song for you, now everybody knows
'Cause now it's just you and me till we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go


Just say you won't let go
Oh, just say you won't let go

[Eternal]

Well King Midas put his hands on me again
He said one day I'd realize why I don't have any friends
I find myself alone at night
Unless I'm having sex
But he can make me golden if I just show some respect

But I don't let him touch me anymore
I said I'm not something to butter up
And taste when you get bored
'Cause I have spent too many nights on dirty bathroom floors
To find some peace and quiet right behind a wooden door

Well, you almost had me fooled
Told me that I was nothing without you
Oh, but after everything you've done
I can thank you for how strong I have become


'Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I'll just say this is "I wish you farewell"


I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin'
I hope your soul is changin', changin'
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin'



I'm proud of who I am
No more monsters, I can breathe again
And you said that I was done
Well, you were wrong and now the best is yet to come
'Cause I can make it on my own, oh
And I don't need you, I found a strength I've never known
I'll bring thunder, I'll bring rain, oh
When I'm finished, they won't even know your name


You brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I'll just say this is "I wish you farewell"


I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin'
I hope your soul is changin', changin'
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin'


Ah sometimes, I pray for you at night, oh
Someday, maybe you'll see the light
Whoa oh oh oh, some say, in life, you're gonna get what you give
But some things only God can forgive


Yeah! (I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin')
I hope your soul is changin', changin'
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin'

[TheAtomicBlade]

'm a red blooded
Rough neck
Son of a bitch
I'm a god damned
American capitalist

"Sometimes you don't need to hear their excuses or what they have to say for themselves because their actions already spoke the truth" - Unknown?

(This is how I have been feeling for quite some time and the past few months have proven that I am not being paranoid and truly am being stepped on. Makes me sad.)

[Storyteller.]

stop looking for light.
live it instead.

Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty. - Mother Teresa

[Storyteller.]

'cause i'm not in a right state of mind;
i just wish i had strength to admit it.

This world will never be what I expected
And if I don't belong who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late, it's never too late

Even if I say it'll be alright
Still I hear you say you want to end your life
Now and again we try to just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around 'cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see this side reflected
And if there's something wrong who would have guessed it?
And I have left alone everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late, it's never too late

[Starseeker]

How they dared to be
Such misguided creatures
How they dared to be
Of such evil nature

(Blind Guardian - Twilight of the Gods)

[daisy_jam]

Opera 2 by Vitas

The whole thing is in Russian and I have no idea what he is saying but I REALLY love it.

The mountain - Three Days Grace

[Eternal]

I'm armed until crash down from the high
And I wake up by your side
Can't make up my mind
I would tell you that I love you but I'd rather be dead
And that's why, when you pulled this shit before
That I'd walk right out the door
But I'm back for more
I would tell you that I love you but I'd rather be dead

[TheAtomicBlade]

Never so lonely have I been
Time passes slowly
My deepest devotion's


Expressed via nervous emotion

Now I'm not thinking clearly
But how I loved you sincerely
Oh demons of darkness,
Take me away, make me forget
This place in time
My world unwinds

So show me the sign
It's tough to shine when your mind's not right
And your light inside
No longer shines,
But there's more than likely
One last chance to take
So promise to wake
Me after heartache is over
Wake
Me after heartache is over

Follow by Breaking Benjamin

[Starseeker]

Somewhere far beyond
The march of time it has begun
Somewhere far beyond your reality
And then the march of time begins

(Blind Guardian - Somewhere far beyond)

[Storyteller.]

i'm still unsure of my emotional state;
i'm still incapable of focusing lately.

i don't feel like creating.

i'm tired of asking google
how to find motivation.

i don't think i've ever made something
that's as good as i'm capable of.

So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year
If we still exist, I can let go of my fear
Fear of normalcy
Fear of the solid walls of our future and let go of my past

i know where i was a year ago today, i know where you were a year ago today.
where are you now? where will i be this time next year? you'll be in love with someone else and i'll be replaying these memories through my mind as i sit in my bedroom, drunk and alone.