Song/Quote of the day!

[Kintsukuroi.]

...

Watch that change 'fore we drown
We ask ourselves, where we are now
Who we are, what that means

You shut me off, just like a gun
Then you run, just like blood
Shut me off, just like a gun
...

Disappear when the sun goes down
Acid spills as you breathe
Turn around, stare at the wall
Bone to my mouth, and read it out

[Dawn.]

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste is more than I can take!
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I can't remember to forget you
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory
Is us kissing in the moonlight
I can't remember to forget you.

- "Can't Remember to Forget You," by Shakira ft. Rihanna

[Clarent]

Blasting Pantera's Vulgar Display of Power album. Pretty good for headbanging and confidence boost.

[Des1615]

그리워 보고 싶어 잘 지내란 말이 무색해질 만큼
오랜 시간 함께해온 추억들이 한 장의 폴라로이드 사진처럼
가슴 한켠에 남는다

[Until the words “I long for you” “I miss you” “Take care” loses its color
As if the long-time memories are like a Polaroid picture
You remain in a corner of my heart]

"언제쯤이면 (When Would It Be) - 윤현상 (Yoon Hyun Sang) Feat. 아이유 (IU)"

[Nightblood.]

"Sleep lures you
like a stranger
with a piece of candy.

Follow me.
It will be okay.
I promise.

You know better,
but still you follow,
because you really do
love candy.”

[Dawn.]

It might seem crazy what I'm about to say
Sunshine she's here, you can take a break
I'm a hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air, like I don't care, baby, by the way
Uh
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do
Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don't hold it back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I'll be just fine, yeah,
No offense to you, don't waste your time
Here's why
Hey
Go
Uh
(Happy)
Bring me down
Can't nothing
Bring me down
My level's too high
Bring me down
Can't nothing
Bring me down
I said (let me tell you now)
Bring me down
Can't nothing
Bring me down
My level's too high
Bring me down
Can't nothing
Bring me down
I said
Hey
Go
Uh
Bring me down... can't nothing...
Bring me down... my level's too high...
Bring me down... can't nothing...
Bring me down, I said
Hey
C'mon

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

Tonight, my head is spinning
I need something to pick me up
I’ve tried but nothing is working
I won’t stop
I won’t say I’ve had enough
Tonight, I start the fire

[Storyteller.]

i didn’t dodge all your bullets, i just denied that they hit me.
so when my body is bleeding i won't admit that this hurts
because admitting isn’t fixing so then what is it worth?
so to say you’re unhappy is like saying you’re sorry:
it's nothing that i care to hear.

[Eternal]

He doesn't know what is real anymore
He tries to read the reflections from her eyes
He never stopped to think about love and direction
He only took the truth from his paranoid lies

Sometimes the beauty starts to die
When it's over
Torture yourself by asking why
But it's over

[Wingardium27]

'When someone said, "Count your blessings now
Before they're long gone."
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong'

- Who Knew, P!nk

'Your way to life has only showed me what a fool I am
It serves the purpose of confirming I remain condemned
And I will ever linger on the edge
Unless you hear me

How long until it starts to do me in
I can’t give out what I’m not breathing in
I know they'll come with what I'm owed, guilty as charged
My enemies belittle me reminding me the penalty of all my deeds despite my pleas is death'

- Off With Her Head, Icon For Hire

'And I told you, I told you, you had no right
How damaged you must be
I watch you panic, it's tragic, you'll carry this for life
You have my sympathy

I will not bend until I break, how much can one bruised body take?
Just not enough to silence me, you're only a memory
I'll scream these words as they come true, then I will think no more of you
Look back on what I'm going through, this isn't my identity'

- Only A Memory (Pernilla), Icon For Hire

'Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottom of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
'cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy'

- Long Way to Happy, P!nk

'I've got nothing left to lose
I've got everything to prove
After all you put me through

Hey yeah, I'm ready, I'm ready to fight
Hey yeah, I'm ready, I'm ready to fight

I won't give in, I'm not that easy
I'll live again and keep on breathing
I'll bleed my last regret
'Cause sometimes you gotta burn the past yeah,
To rise up, rise up from the ashes
Rise up, rise up from the ashes
Rise up, rise up from the ashes
Rise up, rise up from the ashes
Rise up, rise up from the ashes'

- Up From The Ashes, The Letter Black

'Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She wonders why, does anyone ever hear her when she cries?'

- When She Cries, Britt Nicole

'But it’s not my time I'm not going
There's a fear in me it’s not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
But it’s not my time I'm not going
There's a will in me and now it’s gonna show
This could be the end of me
And everything I know'

- It's Not My Time, 3 Doors Down

'Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
'Cause we were so young

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy, are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away'

- Kristy, Are You Doing Okay?, The Offspring

[Storyteller.]

all the places i've been and things i've seen
a million stories that made up a million shattered dreams
the faces of people i'll never see again
and i can't seem to find my way home

[Eternal]

No care, no care in the world
No care, no care in the world
I don't care, I don't care anymore
I don't care, I don't care

[Clarent]

Metallica's St.Anger album. It's not THAT bad, but eh... ;/

[hocus pocus]

And this is how it looks when I am standing on the edge
And this is how I break a p a r t when I finally hit the ground
And this is how it hurts when I pretend I don't feel any pain
And this is how I disappear when I throw myself away

[Des1615]

안녕 잘 가 소중한 사람아
아름답게 반짝이며 날 비춰준 그대여
안녕 내 사랑 널 보며 안녕
조금 더 널 보며 안녕

Goodbye, so long my precious person
You, who beautifully dazzled and shined on me
Goodbye my love, as I look at you, goodbye
As I look at you a little more, goodbye

https://youtu.be/mxJOwRgHiIg

[Storyteller.]

In a minute she says she's better,
she'd rather be all alone.
By the hour she's on the phone,
having a b r e a k d o w n
over a dial tone.

(The number you have dialled is not in service at this time.)

[Dawn.]

Secrets don't make friends.

[Moxie.]

If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am, all that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will
Never change for us at all

[hocus pocus]

I hear you crying softly for the way it was before.

Oh, Tina's losing faith in what she knows
Hates her music, hates all of her clothes
Thinks of surgery and a new nose
Every calorie is a war
She wishes she was a dancer
And that she'd never heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her some answers
And make her feel beautiful.

[blurryface]

feel so easy,
make me skin and bones
i'm always on my knees for you
break like it's even
when you're leaving me thin,
where the hell have you been?

[Storyteller.]

My hands once reached to touch the sky.
Is this the s k y that I reached for?

[Dawn.]

Sittin here guess I didn't make bail
Got time and a story to tell
Started when I was nine years old
Woke up my daddy was gone
I started hustlin they couldn't tell me nothin
Frontin in the hood tryin to be somebody
My soul was on empty
I was searchin for something

Tried to be good; Tried to keep from trouble
Livin too fast; Tryin to make good on a hustle

Sometimes it gets rough
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Times got hard
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Some times you gotta walk to work yeah
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you gotta do a little dirt

Wasn't really lookin guess I found it
Five foot three, light brown skin
Comin from the university
Nice style, lookin kinda lovely
Didn't know she had much game
Down to ride out, even take the train
Even took her to a poker game
She's top notch from fried chicken to sushi

Tried to be good, I tried tried to treat you like a lady
Tried to be a friend, turned out that you were shady

Sometimes it gets lonely
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Thangs aint what they seem to be
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you get a little angry
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you get the best of me

Well, tried to be good I tried
Wanted nothing but to love somebody
Didn't wanna die young
Steady hustlin tryin to feed my family
Too scared to have kids
And do like daddy did
Cuz I'm so scared of failin
Sometimes it gets hard
Comin from where I'm from

Comin from where I'm, I'm from
Sometimes you gotta moan
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you gotta cry a little bit louder
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you gotta fight the pain
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you gotta walk alone
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you get a little worried
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes you get lost outta touch
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from
Sometimes I think I pray a little bit too much
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from

Sometimes I get a little scared
Comin from where I'm from, I'm from

[Pein]

When people are protecting something truly special to them they can become as strong as they can be.

[Wingardium27]

"That boy, take me away, into the night,
Out of the hum of the street lights and into a forest,
I'll do whatever you say to me in the dark,
Scared I'll be torn apart by a wolf in mask of a familiar name on a birthday card."

- Daughter, 'Candles'

"Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away.

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy, are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom,
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away."

- The Offspring, 'Kristy, Are You Doing Okay?'

"You will bleed for what your hands have done,
You can't outrun your ending,
And I'll get well long before you let yourself,
I may forgive you, but you never will.

I will not bend until I break, how much can one bruised body take?
Just not enough to silence me, you're only a memory,
I'll scream these words 'til they come true, then I will think no more of you,
Look back on what I'm going through, this isn't my identity.

And I told you, I told you, you had no right,
How damaged you must be,
Watch you panic, it's tragic, you'll carry this for life,
You have my sympathy."

- Icon For Hire, 'Only a Memory'

All three songs make me cry whenever I hear them - they remind me of my sexual assault 😧

[Pein]

Being hurt inevitably breeds feelings of hatred towards your attacker.
But when we hurt others, we have to deal with their hatred for us.
And our own feelings of guilt, But knowing what it feels like to be hurt is exactly
Why we try to be kind to others, that’s what makes us human.

[Elision]

Do it big, do it right and do it with style
- Fred Astaire

[Clarent]

"Don't let fear eat you from inside, wear your weaknesses with pride."

[Eternal]

He says "Oh, baby girl, don't get cut on my edges
I'm the king of everything and oh, my tongue is a weapon
There's a light in the crack that's separating your thighs
And if you wanna go to heaven you should fuck me tonight"

And I've been sitting at the bottom of a swimming pool for a while now,
Drowning my thoughts out with sounds

[Dawn.]

This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know

Your days, you say they're way too long
And your nights, you can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to know more
You're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead
What are you waiting for?

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Hold on

[Pein]

I know that we can be foolish and make mistakes and we get hurt so easily. But with each mistake, we improve ourselves and with each wound, we don't want to be hurt again. We keep moving on. We cherish the past, the present, and the future.

[Storyteller.]

colors start disappearing...
did we forget how to bleed?

[Clarent]

The Quiet Place by In Flames

[better-than-ecstasy]

Sleepless nights at the black and white keys
I'll let my fingers say it for me
Sometimes my spirit's still so scared
Once I put it in a melody it means so much more to me
Fate sealed, I guess this is how I feel
Sometimes I swear the lyrics write me
The lyrics write me

The melody a remedy to calm me down
You never did approve of the fix I found

Bury all the records in the backyard,
When you're not looking I'll go dig them back up
You can bury my body in the backyard,
When you're not looking I'll go dig myself up
And I know all about the drugs they hide inside the music, I know, I know
I know all about the drugs they hide inside the music

And the preacher at church must've told you about them too
'Cause you came home dead set on what you had to do
You said the demons and drugs hide in rock n roll thugs
If I wanna grow up nice, I better give the music up

[Calaer]

"I can never fight for myself, but, for others, I can kill." -Emilie Autumn

[Moxie.]

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground

But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you're keeping me down

[better-than-ecstasy]

I'm the one with the ghosts in my bed,
But they only come alive at night.
Stuck in my sheets an accustomed coffin,
I swear that I'll be fine,
I'll be fine in the daylight.
If I change, I start to fade,
And all the green in my eyes desaturate,
It's my head not my heart that's strayed.
I'm sorry I keep pushing you away.

[Dawn.]

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?

[Storyteller.]

rest in peace to prince and thief too.
can we speak to g h o s t s ?