Song/Quote of the day!

[Moxie.]

The drought was the very worst
tWhen the flowers that we'd grown together
Died of thirst
It was months and months of back and forth
You're still all over me
Like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore
Hung my head as I lost the war
And the sky turned black like a perfect storm

Rain kept pouring down
When I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And, by morning
Gone was any trace of you
I think I am finally clean

[Eternal]

It's so dark here
The light never comes
Thinking of my future
Is there one to come?

Don't say you won't be here tonight
Just one last time

Don't you leave me here alone trapped in my
In my mind all alone why can't I
Find a way out

Cast me away
Leave me with my angry thoughts
Than you will be free

You pushed me aside
Let me drown
Let me die
Pushed me aside to flee

[Kintsukuroi.]

Time stood still
The way it did before
It's like I'm sleepwalking
Fell into another hole again
It's like I'm sleepwalking

I'm at the edge of the world
Where do I go from here?
Do I disappear?
Edge of the world
Should I sink or swim?
Or simply disappear?

Your eyes are swallowing me
Mirrors start to whisper
Shadows start to sing
My skin's smothering me

[daisy_jam]

Get Shaky - Ian Carey Project

[Eternal]

You’re not the man that I will need
You’ve let me down entirely
I’m better off
I’m better off
Kick me out and let me go
You don’t need me, I’m an angry soul
Shut me out and lock the door
You don’t need me

[Kintsukuroi.]

Cold wind blows, I am shivering
My body aches as my heart is breaking
Why is life making me hollow?
Cold wind blows, I am shivering
My body aches as my heart is breaking
Why is life making me hollow?
Why is happiness casting me in the shadows?
In the shadows.

Hold on, don't turn and walk away
Save me
And I cried these words but nobody came

I’m all alone, running scared
Losing my way in the dark
I tried to get up, stand on a prayer
But I keep crashing down hard
This is my side of the story
Only my side of the story
Nobody cares, nobody's there, no one will hear
My side of the story

Emptiness its all around me
I try to catch my breath
I barely survive and
I can't go on and I come undone
and there’s nothing left in me

[daisy_jam]

Sometimes quiet is violent

[Storyteller.]

Man and sin, Cain,
man and sin
love each other.

[Kintsukuroi.]

Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there

Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you, loving you
I won't let you pull me down

Hunting you, I can smell you - alive
Your heart pounding in my head

[Calaer]

Doctrine and Covenants 88:62-63

And Again, verily I say unto you, my friends, I leave these sayings with you to ponder in your hearts, with this commandment with I give unto you, that ye shall call upon me while I am near-
Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you; seek me diligently and ye shall find me; ask, and ye shall receive; knock and it shall be opened unto you.

[blurryface]

not anymore
flesh out the door
swat

[daisy_jam]

I know what you think in the morning,
When the sun shines on the ground,
And shows what you have done,
It shows where your mind has gone,
And you swear to your parents,
That it will never happen again,
I know, I know what that means, I know.

[hocus pocus]

the scene is obscene, my sanity's split at the seams

[Kintsukuroi.]

I awoke
Only to find my lungs empty
And through the night
So it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid
To sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainty
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down

Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides.
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?

[Coffee.]

I'm hoping that after this fever I'll survive.
I know I'm acting a bit crazy, strung out, a little bit hazy.
Hand over heart, I'm praying that I'm gonna make it out alive.

The bed's getting cold and you're not here, the future that we hold is so unclear
but I'm not alive until you call and I'll bet the odds against it all.

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear you might be right but I don't care.
There's a million reasons why I should give you up

but the heart wants what it wants

[Eternal]

All dried up
in the morning light
realize my love is gone
tell me that you're fine
are you staying warm
can you show me a sign?

last night I had a dream
that the sky would part
and you'd come for me
can you keep me waiting
until the sun goes down?

[Kintsukuroi.]

There is no pain, you are r e c e d i n g
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb

[Kintsukuroi.]

Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity,
Scared of my own ceiling, scared I'll die of uncertainty,
Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety,
Don't know what's inside of me.

[Ral.]

I've been searching for an exit, but I'm lost inside my head;
Where I spend every waking moment, wishing I was dead.
For a few minutes get me away from here, for a few minutes wipe away my tears.
For I am lost right now as the ocean deep;
I am low my friend and how my heart does sink.

[daisy_jam]

Sweet disposition
Never too soon
Oh, reckless abandon
Like no one's watching you

A moment of love
A dream
A laugh
A kiss
A cry
Our rights
Our wrongs
A moment of love
A dream
A laugh
A moment of love
A dream
A laugh

So stay there
'Cause I'll be coming over
While our blood's still young
It's so young, it runs
Won't stop 'til it's over
Won't stop to surrender

Songs of desperation
I played them for you

[blurryface]

listen - you're gonna hit low lows
but we've always got tomorrow
don't look back - look forward
trust me.

[hocus pocus]

And if I seemed dangerous, would you be scared?

[Kintsukuroi.]

As she starts to draw nearer the view becomes clearer
The splinters are painful but she doesn't feel it
The pennies were loaded and as they exploded
She starts to spin out of control...
Her eyes are now closing her sleeves are unrolling
Up past her head and her veins are all showing
Not that she noticed, she's thoroughly focused on
One old man who's laughing...

[Eternal]

You know he lies, all he does is make you cry
Hanging with a different girl almost every other night

Whooa, shes on the phone, and hes been screaming at her all night long
Its time to hang it up and end it right
Come on its Friday night
You know your better off on your own

Hey there's this pretty pretty girl i know
He broke her heart and now shes letting go
What you two had was never love you know

He left her all alone
And he promised he'd be there
Never thought that he could get caught
Now its time for all this to stop

[Kintsukuroi.]

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might b r e a k
I've lost myself again and

I feel unsafe

[Ral.]

So goodnight moon and goodnight you,
When you're all that I think about,
All that I dream about.
How'd I ever breathe without,
A goodnight kiss from goodnight you.

[nothereanymore]

Fly with me under the wings I gave you.
Try to be closer to me and I'll save you.
I'm too weak to face me
I never know just why you run so far away, far away from me...

[hocus pocus]

Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces.
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.

Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees.

[Astrophile.]

You got my head spinning, I don't know where to go from here.

[Chai.]

Well you know I was always the first to arrive at the party,
Oh and the last to leave the scene of the crime.
Well it started with a couple of beers,
And it went I don't know how many years,
Like a run away train heading for the end of the line.

Well I finally got around to admit that I might have a problem,
But I thought it was just too damn big of a mountain to climb,
Well I got down on my knees and said Hey,
I just can't go on living this way,
Guess I have to learn to live my life one day at a time.

Oh yeah, One Day at a Time.
Oh yeah, One Day at a Time.

Well I finally got around to admit that I was the problem,
When I use to put the blame on everybody's shoulders but mine,
All my friends I use to hang with are gone,
But I hadn't planned on living this long,
Guess I'll have to learn to live my life one day at a time,
It was something I was too blind to see,
I got help from something greater then me,
Now I have to learn to live my life one day at a time

.

[Kintsukuroi.]

six- you close your eyes
five- control your breath
four- you feel the warmth
three- relax your mind
two- do you feel safe
one- now you are here

it seems to be u n r e a l
the colours fade away
like a puppet on a string
where will we march today
the string was always there
it leads up to the sky
the colours fade away
who can tell me why

six - you've got to get to know yourself
five - or are you just a marionette
four - following the subtle rules
three - given by the mighty
two - following the subtle rules
one - given by the mighty

[Ral.]

I have screamed until my veins collapsed,
I've waited as my time's elapsed.
Now, all I do is live with so much fate.
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that,
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create.
I've gotta say what I've gotta say,
And then I swear I'll go away.
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise.

[Chai.]

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong.

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Calaer]

My song for the day is 'Life's a happy song' from the Muppets! I swear I could listen to it ALL day long.

[blurryface]

packed my bags and looked to the west
kissed her picture twenty times
take some clothes and a deep breath
go commit the perfect crime

the first night i took one to the chest
dancing on the borderline
i wrecked the mood and i must confess
missed the picture every time

i guess it's just like me to get real sentimental before i leave

[Kintsukuroi.]

I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm,
And there's a demon in my brain that starts to o v e r w h e l m,
And there it goes, my last chance for peace,
You lay me down, but I get no release,
I try to keep awake,
I try to swim beneath,
But I can feel this narcolepsy slide,
Into another nightmare.

And there's a demon in my head who starts to play,
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday,
And I hold my breath 'till it's more than I can take,
And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake,
I try to keep awake,
I try to keep awake,
But I can feel this narcolepsy slide,
into another nightmare

[Calaer]

My song for the day is Automatic Eyes by The Academy Is...

[Kintsukuroi.]

When the ghosts get in your head,
all your eyes can see is red.
Your sail is down, your ship is wrecked,
Thunders left you there for dead.

Ohh-oh-ohh, you're fading, fading, ohh-oh-ohh.

Hey now don't you runaway, don't you runaway.
Hey now don't you be afraid, don't you be afraid.
You're safe.
You're safe.

When danger grabs you from above,
Falling down, you're giving up.
And you can't remember how to love,
you swear to god you've had enough.

[Calaer]

"You are more than the mistakes you've made. You are the wisdom, love, strength, and compassion you've gained from all you've been through." ~Karen Salmansohn.

[Eternal]

And another one bites the dust
Oh why can I not conquer love?
And I might have thought that we were one
Wanted to fight this war without weapons
And I wanted it, I wanted it bad
But there were so many red flags
Now another one bites the dust
Yeah, let's be clear, I'll trust no one
You did not break me
I'm still fighting for peace
Well, I've got thick skin and an elastic heart,
But your blade - it might be too sharp
I'm like a rubber band until you pull too hard,
Yeah, I may snap and I move fast
But you won't see me fall apart
'Cause I've got an elastic heart