Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Just a really sh*tty day at school | opening up?

[Ryiga]

Ugh. So I woke up today and went to school. Had a math test, obviously failed and apparently I find out that i'll fail the class if I don't fix my grades by the end of the month. So I have a week to fix my stuff and i'll probably get a harder test, despite asking the teacher to let me re-do the test tomorrow so I could actually study for it. This is just the start of my shit day.

At chemistry class this one guy began to mess with me until I actually got tired of him and told him to fuck off and called him a scumbag-. Why did I do it? Because I have anger issues and apparently that's a no-no for me in school.

That backfired at religious class-. The same guy literally got a little group of his friends to literally humiliate me when the teacher walked out of the classroom for a minute.
For a minute and a half, I was apparently a "target" and they threw random stuff at me. Why didn't I retaliate? Oh, that's right, I don't want to get confronted, or jumped on or worse.
I sometimes think of putting a curse on them. How? I dunno. That's what's wikihow is for. But then again, is it worth it? I'll probably just look like i'm desperate to be left alone. That's what they seek for.

I really wonder what would my life be if my parents hadn't divorced. I wouldn't move from my old town. Perhaps i'd still have friends and won't be depressed. By "friends" I mean "real friends". You know, the type of friends that don't suddenly become toxic and manipulative all of a sudden.

Speaking of "friends", my "friend" messed up his foot at P.E today. God, watching him grunt in pain was satisfying. That's what you get, bitch. Karma.

Anyways.

I really wish all of this just stopped so I could be happy for once...
...And I could stop whining on these forums, haha.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello,
I am so sorry that you didn't have a good day and I hope you will be okay soon. With you're school work can you try talking with you're teacher's and letting them know that you are having a hard time with this and see if they are able to help you out with this. And to see if they are able to tutor you so that you're able to get you're grades up higher and you're able to pass all of you're test. Also try going and talking with the school counselor and letting them know that you're having a hard time and see if they can set you up with a tutor or someone can help you with you're work at the school. I hope that you're friend will be okay. Also, I hope that you will be okay also and go to school and be okay with the work and tests that you are doing.

I am sorry about you're parents, are you able to talk with them able this and see if they can help you too. Also can you try talking with you're friends about how they are and let them know how it is bothering you. If you are having a hard time you can always write a letter for them to read and then you can talk about it after. I hope you will be okay soon.