Bullied because of a joke

[BLAGHT]

So I made an Instagram where I can openly express myself by posting hate pictures and hate on others. My Instagram contained lots of offensive pictures and everyone at school thinks I'm a racist! Everyone calls me Hitler The II because of it. At first I thought they were joking, so I played along by making offensive jokes and speaking in German. But now no one sits by me on the bus and I get sworn at and people push/hit me! Someone even reported me to the principle because of my Instagram (not in trouble yet) and I hate school now! I feel like killing everyone at my school or killing myself! Really, those are the only ways to end this bullshit... If I kill myself everyone will think im a pussy, and if I kill everyone else I will be a monster! I can't stop now being "Hitler" or they will call me an even bigger pussy! I don't know what to do anymore!

Note: I made my instagram private and never put my name on it, so no one can find me! Second, I really need to keep it up! This is the first time I have been able to express my feelings! I love seeing people get pissed off and I love swing others get hurt. I need help, but I need to express myself openly as well

[Kate*]

I'm sorry that you are being bullied and that you feel like killing yourself or others is the only option you have. Harming yourself and/or others is NOT the answer! One strong suggestion would be to remove the offensive material from your Instagram. You have a right to express yourself, but it may not only lead to reactions like this, but could come back to seriously haunt you when it comes to college and/or job applications. Future employers and college admissions officials can and will Google you and you don't want that kind of content attached to your name. You can't control what other people do or say, only how you react to it. Consider what kind of reputation you want to have and take actions now to create that reputation, and if they call you names, that's on them. Even if you meant this as a "joke" there are certain things that aren't funny which is why they are called offensive. If you want to express yourself in this way consider doing so privately.

So you like to make people angry, but only if it's not directed at you? If you're doing it to get a rise out of people, you really have to expect this kind of reaction. I'm not telling you not to express your feelings, but by doing it publicly, you are leaving yourself open to reactions like this. And did you just make the page private, because the bullies somehow figured out the page belonged to you. Since you know you need help, I"m going to strongly suggest that you seek it. They can help you figure out why you feel the way you do and find more effective ways to express yourself.

[Its.Just.Angie]

hi there,

Sorry to hear that you are being bullied... I totally agree with everything that Kate said! Suicide isn't and never will be the answer.. Neither about hurting others.. Its better to stop now before like your future job sees and other authorities..

So how about you can express your emotions by like painting or drawing.. Or any artwork.. You can also journel your feelings or write about it then if you want to publish them online if you want the world to see! (If not offensive) There is so many alternatives instead of offending others on install. Its probably gonna get you more in trouble if you continue.

Hope this helped a little feel free to PM/VM me anytime if you need anything!

[Philomath]

Hi There,

I agree with what has previously been mentioned.
Bullying others will not help you and you'd do not deserve to be bullied as well. Finding another outlet to express yourself could be useful as long as that outlet is constructive, not public and able to offend someone.
I believe that if you change your behavior both online and in person, you will gain a reputation that is one you would like instead of what you are experiencing now. Create a new instagram that is not offensive and remove this one that is. In school, do your best to respect people and treat them kindly instead of being mean: you will find that eventually you will have more friends and people will begin to look at you differently.
I hope this helps and that you can get things sorted out.

Note: I am moving this to Peer Pressure and Bullying because I believe the thread fits better in that forum.

[weaved1]

You put yourself in that situation and it's up to you to face the music and deal with it. What you did was sad and they aren't bullying you.. they are disliking you for your distasteful ways.

[JoeShmoe92]

Hi i been in ur shoes. i make bad jokes all the time. just try to make friends and look for people like you. don't care what others think bc in a few years u will never see those people again and you will live ur life the way u want don't let others tell u how u should talk, act..... you b u!! also remember u r still young and make mistakes everyone makes mistake and you look back on them and you grow as a person and learn from them. don't kill ur self over this its not worth it. i promise you, you will b fine in life. this is just one stage of ur life and you will have a lot more when u get older. if you ever need to talk/ or when life gets bad. i wish i had someone to talk to when i went through rough times. sometimes its easier to talk to someone online a strayer that has a out side perspective. just message me or email. last thing just remember this is you, you r worth it and a person no one is better then u!

[MWF]

Hold on... you love seeing others get hurt, and you love pissing people off? Did you not think they would retaliate in some way? These are self-inflicted wounds, buddy. If you wanna be liked, don't spread hate. Honestly, you should go on your instagram and just make a public apology. Or as public as it gets on that website. Thats only a start.
And dont even think the word kill... thats messed up man. Forget about what others think, and you wont wanna kill anybody.