Triggering: (grieving/sh/suicide)My baby...

[lost_chil]

Tonight at around 12:48 my bunny Maki passed away... She- Her uterus fell out, which aparently is normal for alot of female rabbits. Anyways, she lost A LOT of blood, it wasn't untill 2 hours after she was bleeding we realised her uterus was out of her body... Mom and Jim rushed her to the er vet. She said it's normal, but she had to operate asap. After puting the uterus back into her body, they did a bunch of stuff, while she was out with anesthetics. So after that, she didn't have one, aka, she was spayed. The vetss worry was infection from the bacteria on the uterus from hanging out... But thats not what did it... She came out of the anesthetics perfectly fine, when mom and Jim came back, she lifted her head, remembering their voices, and moved her leg. The vet said that was amazing and a very good sign. Minutes later she started gasping for air... They put her on oxygen... And she just... Stopped... She died... My baby... My best friend... Died... I knew when I went into my room when I got home tonight that something was wrong... And some how, I knew deep down that she wasn't going to make it... I knew that those were the last words I was ever going to say to her again... I sadly was correct... She's gone now... I am completly suicidal, my friend is saying she is going to off herself, on top of this. Trying to ignore the blade calling me, it's just so hard... I can't take this anymore... I loved maki.... and now she's gone... WHAT DO I LIVE FOR NOW?! She was my happiness, she was what made me wake up in the morning with a smile. I now have nothing to look forward to when I go into my room... I just get to see her cage...

I just wanted to announce this... It's killing me... I can't do this anymore... I am so lost... My body is still in shock... I still can't believe it...

[Just Laura]

Okay, I know this sounds a bit ridiculous right now, but take a few deep breaths and calm down. When we lost my dog I fell apart in the same way....

The fact is, yes, she was your best friend. And yeah, it's absolutely heartbreaking when they die... It really shatters your world.... But there's not much you can do, except move past it and remember her. It hurts less as time moves on, but right now it just sucks.

And really, killing yourself would solve nothing. Killing yourself over your best friend dying is pointless, no matter what species.


Just relax, take some deep breaths, and get some sleep.
You'll be okay.

[emma01]

Aww thats sad im so sorry, i hate losing animals it is really really hard. You could make a scrapbook for your little bunny putting all the pictures in, it might make you feel better. Also in these next few weeks try keep yourself as busy as possible so you dont think about it.

[Anomaly]

aww Alice im so sorry

I fell apart when my guniea pigs died its ok to grieve over her she was your best friend.

Hang in there.

[DrawingBreath]

Your friend who is also suicidal-you must continue to be there for her. Think of how you would feel if something were to happen to her. She feels the same about you. Plus, she needs the support from someone like you who can understand her right now. Remember that you two have help and understanding in each other, and please continue to be alive for and support each other. Not to mention, all of your other friends and family. Perhaps one day you may be willing to take on another bunny or pet. There are bunnies that need to be rescued and given good homes with someone loving such as yourself. The pain should not be quite as hard the second time. Meanwhile, please try to focus on who is there for you and spend time with them.

[WillO'Wisp]

I'm very very sorry for your loss. Just remember, cutting yourself or killing yourself will not solve anything! There are still people who care about you, and I understand your bunny is gone...I can understand how heartbroken you must be. I would feel the exact same way if I ever lost my bird.
I know you don't believe this, but it'll become easier to cope with with time, it'll become easier. It won't always hurt. You won't always feel this pain and be in grieving. It'll get better, things always do even when it seems unlikely they will.

[Stardaze]

Aw this made me so sad.
I'm sorry for your loss.