is she kidding me?

[onlyfoolingmyself]

okay, so i have this big problem since 1 year one and i really feel that i can't take it anymore.
my best friend had a boyfriend, they broke up and suddenly she didn't talk to me. At first I thought this is only because she broke up with him. But after some weeks she still didn't talk to me. I asked my other friends what was wrong with her but no one could answer me. I felt like losing a friend again.
Then, around easter, I went to England with some other classmates (school exchange). She was allowed to so my best friend was so jealous! She ignored me after I came back. For months. When I tried to talk to her she just went with her new best friend.
Every night I lay awake and cried and cried and cried. I heard depressed songs but I was still optimistic! I really thought she would come to me and apologize for her behavior. Guess what? She didn't.
After some time, I was so sad and angry at myself. Maybe I did something to her? I wanted to know so I just called her.
I told her everything and she was like: oh yeah, i am so sorry! i don't know why i did this but i promise everything will be okay! our friendship is so strong...blah..blah..blah.
I belived her.
Stupid me.
It didn't get better. She ignored me again. After school I went to her and asked her again why she is doing this. Her answer was: I am not ignoring you.
Right. I am just invisible for you.
And now, she just hangs out with 'the cool ones' and her new best friend. she drinks beer now, put a lot of make up in her face (just like her new bf) and so on.. I know, people change but how can she do this to me? I am not a puppet which you can throw away. One week ago I talked to her again. She told me: You are the nicest person in the world and you are a true friend! I never want to lose you!
Oh yeah. Right. And I am freaking rich and famous.
Every time I see her I want to scream to her face: Are you freaking kidding me?
But unfortunately I am soooo optimistic that I still believe she will finally see how much she hurts me.
I can't even tell she's my friend and she is lying to me.. argh!
My other friends noticed that and feel pity for me.
Now I don't really know what to do anymore. I don't want to lose another friend (yep, that makes 4 including her).

[ScarredByMemories]

I know this isnt an easy thing togo through. I have been going through the same thing recently. I found that if I move on and make new friends, my friend starts getting jealous and wants to be my friend again. Maybe it's the same with her? Maybe she wants to make herself feel important by ignoring you and making you feel bad?
I would suggest trying to make some new friends (not choosing any friend over any other friend, just having several friends which you can get on well with) and hopefully she'll see sense.