Addiction to Pain.

[You're Never Alone]

Simple as that I'm addicted to pain. I need it to stop. if it doesn't.. I could lose everyone I care about.

[Eternal]

I know you haven't directly said whether you self harm or not, but I think the list of alternatives could be beneficial for you. It has ways to get that rush but without doing permanent damage to your body. Might be worth checking out: Alternatives to Self Harm

You could also try switching to rewarding yourself rather than needing pain. Another thing to try is exercising when you feel you need to feel something. Not only is exercise good for you, it releases endorphins which make you happy. Try going for a long walk or a run the next time you start feeling like you need a release.

[Detective GokuMustang]

I had a friend who was in the same situation as you. A bunch, actually. It's more common than people think. What helped them is finding things that gave them feeling, that didn't actually hurt themselves.

Squeezing an Ice Cube for awhile helps. Try it out

[You're Never Alone]

Originally Posted by Melody

I know you haven't directly said whether you self harm or not, but I think the list of alternatives could be beneficial for you. It has ways to get that rush but without doing permanent damage to your body. Might be worth checking out: Alternatives to Self Harm

You could also try switching to rewarding yourself rather than needing pain. Another thing to try is exercising when you feel you need to feel something. Not only is exercise good for you, it releases endorphins which make you happy. Try going for a long walk or a run the next time you start feeling like you need a release.

You know.. you're really good at helping people.. There should be more people like you in the world. I believe you'll make a change in the world. I wish you luck