MY Addiction

[Smilee1994]

Hi, I am new to all of this, but I believe I must get it out. My friends never sit and just LISTEN. So I resort to cutting myself. My parents don't know, and only a very close friend and boyfriend know. It is so addicting, to feel the razor on my arm, to feel the pain and see the blood. It makes me feel good for awhile, but then it goes away, and i do it over and over and over. I am afraid I am becoming addicted, and i want to stop, but I just can't I do it to feel free and be happy, and forget my past and it makes me feel like maybe I am not as horrible a kid my dad says I am or as bad a friend they say I am, or as ugly as they think I am. This has helped me alot, but its not as relieving as the cutting.

[Philomath]

Hey, first off, welcome to Th!

I know it can be hard to quit cutting and that it can become an addiction, I'm trying to quit it now and it's not easy, but at the same time it's definitely possible. You should try some alternatives, there is a thread here called the self harm alternatives, or something like that, I haven't looked at in a while but it has a ton of different ways in which to deal with sh. You should try writing down your feelings, if you don't already, that really helps me out. Also listening to music helps, listen to something that won't trigger you though. I hope this has helped and if you want to talk to me about this, or anything else, you can PM me. I will definitely listen and try to help.

[lindsay ferguson]

hey
i'm new to this to, i totally relate, i have an idea.
when you feel like cutting yourself take a cold shower, it works for me, and while your in there scream as loud as you can. i hope it helps you