Triggering: Alcohol (mention of SH.)

[Palmolive]

Would you like a drink, you ask me so,
I deny the offer, after thinking through,
That yes please would be answer,
But I think about the disasters,
That happened when I used to be an alcoholic,

Drinking every day from 7am,
Falling asleep at 6pm,
Crying for hours because I couldn't breathe,
Disappearing from the house,
Because I was in a dream,

Lying to you all and never seeing the truth,
That when I drink I destroy myself and you too,
Cutting deep and feeling low,
Wishing all that I could so,
To disappear and not be see through,

But I went on a journey to detox my body,
To let it come out and go away from my soul,
I had hot sweats with shivers and shakes,
Threw up with headaches,
And had a set routine of being medicated,

And now I try to stay as strong as I can,
Keep the devil away and stand up,
To become free of this and free through the night.
But the thoughts come back, how I want it so,
To take me down and lead me to hell.

[MsNobleEleanor]

I really like how you expressed yourself Jess.
It's tough to stay strong, but you can do it! I know you are stronger than alcohol.

It's beautifully written and I hope you write more, write more of your feelings.

[hocus pocus]

Disappearing from the house,
Because I was in a dream,

Love that part! You're really good at expressing yourself; keep posting your poetry.

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

This definitely tells a story.

[Kintsukuroi.]

Oh my gosh! This is so powerful and this part:

Keep the devil away and stand up,
To become free of this and free through the night.
But the thoughts come back, how I want it so,
To take me down and lead me to hell