Triggering (SH): My SH addiction

[corcor76]

About 8 months ago, I was in a middle of a wrestling match when the kid threw me and dislocated my elbow, tore all my tendons and ligaments. Shortly after I recovered after serious and many surgeries; I began to work out for wrestling again. I was unable to go to Physical therapy for my elbow due to insurance issues between the school, parents, and insurance companies. So I had to try my best to re-train myself. I worked out every day as hard as I can until I physically dropped. I would run, bike, throw on "wrestling sweat suits" and work out til I drop. I had to have a IV pumped into me at a fire scene due to being severely dehydrated after working out and trying to fight a fire. Even after many times of being severely dehydrated I would still work out until my body comes in pain; I don't stop working out or wrestling til in pain. I practice every day and always wrestle the better wrestlers and/or coaches, even if it means getting the total snot kicked out of me. I feel disgusted with myself every morning, i can't stop wrestling though or working out, I tried to stop and I just can't relax until I wrestle. I don't know what to do at all.

[Coffee.]

Hey Corrie,

What are your reasons for wresting? Is it for working out, or at this point, are you really only doing this for the pain? If it's the second reason, I would really recommend you talk to an adult you trust, since this is a very unhealthy obsession. Is this also for weight loss? Or maybe popularity? Feel free to reply here, or PM me if you wish. I just need some clarification.

[♥Bliz]

pherhaps there's more to this then, like Traci said, It may be based upon something else. A thought of failure perhaps? Take some water with you and stop IMEDIATELY if you run out, also, try having a timmer to set, so you only work out for so long... just limit yourself, and be certian to never over do it! I really hope that it's not like an addiction to you!