High Vs. Low (Doctor?)

[Bloody_Obsession]

Okay, so I have been doing quite a bit of research on my own and I would really like to see a doctor about possibly being Bipolar and for Depression. However, my thing is... money is limited and insurance is a no go. I don't do well in hospital settings so... I'm not really sure what my options are. Does anybody know of anything that could possibly help? I just can't handle the highs for a minute and then a massive low the next. And when I'm in the middle, it's just down right confusing. I'm feeling completely overwhelmed and just... UGH! Please, Help.

[Batman.]

Bipolar and Depression don't go together. They're two different things.

Anyways, what are your HIGHS like? Explain the best you can with a real-life example (including actions, duration, etc.), and that will help everyone here get to understand better.

[Bloody_Obsession]

My highs make me feel like I'm on top of the world, like nothing could touch me. They can last from just a few minutes to an entire day but it doesn't take much to make that great feeling crash. With just the tone of somebody's voice, my world can feel like it is crashing down and like I'll never smile again. I feel uber depressed, and I can't even get motivated to do the things that I usually really enjoy doing. And sometimes, I have time in the middle. It's like all my emotions get all mixed up and I don't know what to feel and it all just becomes way too much.

[OMFG!You'reActuallySmart!]

No doctor will diagnose you with bipolar and depression because the disorders are mutually exclusive. Any depression you would experience would have to be from bipolar or another non-mutually exclusive disorder. Sorry, you haven't done research giving you correct information, even Wikipedia will tell you otherwise in less than 10 minutes. Further research would tell you there's different types of bipolar disorder (i.e. reading parts of an online DSM-IV-TR).

Since you say someone's voice makes your emotions change, that suggests you are very sensitive but not bipolar because bipolar is not from someone telling you anything, it's an internally-driven pathology. What you described is external stimuli that affects you because you are very sensitive. That also indicates low self-esteem, low confidence and other things. Not bipolar nor depression. Less than 10 minutes on Wikipedia will tell you this.

[Bloody_Obsession]

Either way it goes, I would like to see somebody about it. Maybe they could find out exactly what's causing it and give me a few suggestions as how to make it better or go away if at all possible. Believe it or not, my self esteem is pretty high and my ego seems to expand every day. I'm just tired of having fluxuating moods and what not. I never said I had anything because I'm no doctor and my research with medical stuff usually sucks. I just want support and to know that I'm normal.

[Batman.]

Honestly, what the other user said makes alot of sense.

Though, I'm telling you right now, it's definitely not Bipolar. You could have Mild Depression, for all I know. But, the best thing to do would be to talk to your doctor. They may just simply suggest Therapy to help you.

Good Luck!

[OMFG!You'reActuallySmart!]

Originally Posted by Bloody_Obsession

Either way it goes, I would like to see somebody about it. Maybe they could find out exactly what's causing it and give me a few suggestions as how to make it better or go away if at all possible. Believe it or not, my self esteem is pretty high and my ego seems to expand every day. I'm just tired of having fluxuating moods and what not. I never said I had anything because I'm no doctor and my research with medical stuff usually sucks. I just want support and to know that I'm normal.

To quote a book and author I like very much:

"We are all mutants. But some of us are more mutant than others."
- Armand Marie Leroi of the book Mutants: On Genetic Variety and the Human Body.

In other words, nobody is truly "normal", so if you want to seek it, it's a task you have no chance at getting. You may not have any mood disorder or any mental illness, but in some way, like everyone, you're not "normal".

Philosophy aside, the statement you made earlier seems to explain your moods, in that if someone says something that saddens you, you get very sad due to sensitivity and thin skin. You claim to have high, ever-rising self-esteem and ego, which if true, could suggest narcissism and the statements people make saddens you because it takes a swing at fragile, overly-exaggerated ego and self-esteem. Mind you, I'm not suggesting you do have narcissistic personality disorder because I don't know enough information to even suggest any personality disorder. But if you have a very high, highly-exaggerated ego and get very depressed when someone says something that saddens you, it may suggest narcissism.

[deartrixie]

yeah but theres a type of Bipolar disorder that has depression as a symptom.

[Batman.]

Originally Posted by deartrixie

yeah but theres a type of Bipolar disorder that has depression as a symptom.

All Bipolar subtypes have Depression as a symptom. But it has Mania too, which is a bit more extreme than "Ooh, I'm so happy today!".