Bulimia is back.

[Cullen]

So, it's back again... And it really sucks. I hate it. very time it's gone, I thoguht I was rid of it. I thought it was over. I don't even know what triggers me into it... I just want to eat and eat and eat, over and over. I dread the part after the eating...I hate that part with a passion. I feel awful afterwards. I used to get a high, but now... Now I just feel terrible and sad and alone.

Could some one please help me? I can't turn anywhere else...

[Ess The Morgenstern *]

hi so it's the same with me, though I've never trully overcome it, I mean, I'm on recovery but it's always been here. I know how it is feeling like eating all the time; maybe you're having stress in your life, perhaps you aren't eating enough and your body is trying to get what it needs from this, in my case, it is the strong habit I have created and how alone I feel, and the urge of hurting myself with whatever, because I hate every single aspect of me.
If something of this sounds familiar to you, I think you're pretty much using it because you once learnt to cope with your emotions with this sickness, and I don't know why, perhaps it's because bulimia is a mental illness, but it makes you feel somehow "better" (not sure if that's the right word, maybe tidier) or "safer".
Feel free to pm/vm at any time
All the best xx