Im Not Sure If This Is An Eating Disorder

[Crybaby_JiminsLover_]

So I dont know if this is an eating disorder or not, But I don't eat.. Now when I say I don't eat I mean I Don't Eat I Don't Eat Breakfest or Lunch Everyday. Its Not like I have a motive to Not eat, I don't have any motive to eat. I'm Just Not Hungry Anymore, I Don't have any feelings of hunger anymore. But The Only thing i eat is dinner. I have to eat dinner to not rise any suspicious of course, When I was eating last night because I had to so none of my parents would think anything was wrong, I felt sick, As I was eating Even my favorite food with steak! Steak!! I love steak!!, but anyways as i was eating i felt sick to my stomach, I don't purge or eat then purge because i had the feeling of vomit i cant stand vomiting because once i had a traumatic event with vomiting ( I ate so much once, I could not stop vomiting and i vomited for about 2 hours ) So I just keep the food in my system, I felt sick as i was eating, I felt sick of eating, Maybe its because now Im really sad and depressed im sure and i read that depression can change eating habits, i dont know anymore, But all i know right now is that, Im skipping eating meals except on weeknds and dinner thats when i eat because I dont want to rise up any suspiciouns

[Celyn]

Depression can definitely cause a lack of appetite and it can be hard to distinguish this from an eating disorder. Either way, you don't feel hungry, don't have any motivation to eat aside from eating dinner to keep your parents suspicions at bay.

It sounds like this is affecting your life quite a bit, so I'm wondering if you have anyone you can talk to about it, maybe a doctor or counsellor? What about your parents- why do you feel you have to hide how you feel from them? It can be scary opening up to others, but you could do with some support and you don't have to go through this alone!