How do I know if I have an eating disorder?

[oceaneyes95]

I really don't know how to put any of this. I was basically just wondering how to identify wether or not I have an eating disorder. I have never been overweight, or considered obese at all even though obesity runs in my family. I have been self conscious about my weight since I was 12. I remember my mom was very verbally abusive about it at that time. She bullied me quite cruelly at that time about my weight. I would say I have always had abnormal eating habits. But, never starved myself. I just ate what I wanted when I wanted to. I never made myself throw up either. Although I tried once after my mom had called me fat. But, as silly as it sounds I don't think I really knew what I was doing because it didn't work. Before my first pregnancy I was edited lbs, and 5'4. I'm very petite. I gained a little weight before I got pregnant for no apparent reason which brought me to edited lbs.The day I went in to have deliver my first baby I was edited lbs. I lost about edited lbs before leaving the hospital. Then, I slowly lost weight due to edited, and drinking lots of water. I never actually changed my eating habits, and it was too cold for me to take my baby outdoors to exercise with me. My goal was to lose almost all my baby weight, and get down to edited lbs. I made it to about edited lbs on my best day, but edited lbs on my worst day. When I took my baby, and moved from my moms. I had no job, and the people I was moving in with didn't approve of my use of dieting supplements. So, I quickly gained my baby weight back. It brought me back to edited- editedlbs. Then shortly after moving from there when I moving with my now husband I was at edited lbs. Then, got pregnant again with my second baby. I'm still currently pregnant. I'm 25 weeks along, and I now weigh edited lbs. I obsess over my weight now. I already have multiple ideas for losing weight after my second baby, and eventually getting back down to that edited-editedlbs rage. On top of the stress I put on myself I have my husband saying things like "I miss the days when you were so tiny.", and an ex boyfriend who used to put me down hardcore about my weight starting at 6 weeks after I had my baby. He always made fun of me because he thought I ate too much, and thought I was chubby. He told me that he can't be friends with fat people, and that if I got up to edited lbs he would dump me. I know that shouldn't matter now because i'm married to my babies' dad. But, it still has a negative effect on me. Do you think I have an eating disorder? Maybe borderline eating disorder? If so what can I do to help myself?

[ladygodoftitsandwine]

Seek out help. From what you explained, it sounds to me like advice from your peers won't help you solve what you are going through. I suffered with Anorexia from ages 12 to 15. I understand how you are feeling. Speaking only for myself, I wasn't able to recover mentally, emotionally, and physically until I sought outside help from a therapist and a doctor. That is my suggestion to you. Please know that you are not at fault and you didn't do anything wrong. With every problem there is a solution. If you really do want to feel better, then be proactive in seeking help. There is no shame in it. I was in therapy for 5 years and looking back, I am so grateful that I did. Please do not brush this under the rug. Don't pay attention to negativity from others and especially don't be negative towards yourself. Be kind to yourself

[Palmolive]

Hi there,

Firstly I just wanted to make you aware that on Teenhelp, you're not allowed to post weight numbers or methods of dieting. That doesn't mean we're not here to support you thought, okay? We want to help you

I can't tell you whether or not you have an eating disorder because I'm not a medical professional, however, it sounds like you have a bit of an unhealthy relationship with food and your weight and self image. And for that reason I would advise you to seek help from a professional such as your GP, counsellor, dietitian or an eating disorder specialist. They may be able to offer advice on a healthy balanced diet, ensure you're at a healthy weight and offer groups such as a self image group for you to go too. Do you think you'd be able to reach out for help? I know it can be scary but I also know it can be helpful and beneficial.

Hope this helps a little.

Hopes and wishes,
Jessie