Could this possibly be leading into an eating disorder?

[AnALightbulb]

Hi,

I don't know...maybe I am overreacting, but I am starting to focus on how much I weigh and what I am consuming. Certain foods are starting to gross me out. Like I really don't want to eat anything greasy, anything that has a lot of breading on it, any type of dessert. I skip meals sometimes, but that has always been normal for me. But sometimes I have it in my head that I am not hungry so I will just eat a little, and then I end up eating more because I am hungry, and then I just feel gross afterwards. I did have a problem a few years ago where I was in a depressive state, and just the thought of eating, and then actually consuming food, I wanted to throw up (it never happened though). My weight proves to me that I am not overweight (I am towards the lower end of recommended weight), but I feel like I am. I can usually push it away from my mind because again, I KNOW I am not overweight. I struggled with it more a couple of days ago than I am now, but I still don't want to eat certain foods. I think low state of mind and monthly cycle played into it partially, but part of me is freaking out because I don't need an eating disorder.

Is this something I should be concerned about? What can I do to avoid developing an eating disorder? I am in a low state of mind and cannot seem to pull myself out of it, so I am worried about this if I still have these thoughts and feelings when there really is nothing wrong with my weight. Any advice would be appreciated

[MackAttack]

Hi Girly,
There are a few things you've said that are a little concerning:
1. Considering you are well aware that you're weight is lower but are still fixated on what you weigh is a little troubling. Is there any way, (I know this may sound difficult,) that you can remove weighscales/scales from your residence? Sometimes I find that, that little number on the scale can influence a lot of my thoughts so I try to focus more on how my clothes are fitting, ect. to determine if I should change my health patterns.
2. Skipping meals is a highly dangerous path to go down. Even if you are throwing in a couple pieces of fruit, a bag of nuts/trailmix, or granola bars throughout the day is better than going hours without eating. Maybe if it's food that's bothering you, try substituting a meal in your day with a juicer. It's a great way to incorporate fruits, veggies, and protein powder into one yummy smoothie.
3. If you are worried about the things you are doing - this is a strong indicator that something is wrong. Being a 100% honest with yourself is really important in the sense that if you are experiencing some trouble overcoming these thoughts, you should speak to a loved one about how you've been feeling.
I hope some of this information is a little helpful and know that I am always open for a message if you ever need someone to speak to.