Triggering: I really want to talk to someone.

[PlutoTheOpposum]

Hi, I've made a ton of posts lately; things are getting bad again. It's no surprise--for me, getting better will never last more than a few months.
I feel so lonely, what with my friends finding me annoying and my older sister betraying me, etc. I feel like crying as I write this.
I keep obsessing over sttupid things like, finding a diagnosis that I fit, or overthinking about being sent to the hospital. And then I just get so mad. I can't SH right now, even though I'm not over it yet. That sounds like a good thing but it's not, or at least for me it isn't. It's like having a shelf and continuously adding stuff to it, until one day it inevitably breaks. That's what I feel like will happen to me, because no matter how much I talk about it it doesn't work.
I haven't been able to talk to my therapist in two months. I'm scared to ask my mom because she might think something's up, and the last time she talked to me about my mental health she was so confrontational.
It's honestly gotten so bad to the point where any little thing makes me violently angry. I sound like a broken record saying that, lol.
I also haven't had my meds in awhile, not that they were working anyways. I still felt like this even with them, but now it's just magnified.
I really need a friend right now. Somebody who won't leave me and somebody who doesn't find me annoying. If any of you are okay with it, can I maybe talk to you? you can just pm me. I'll try not to overshare.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello Lyl

I am so sorry that you are having a hard time with everything right now and I hope that you will be okay soon. You are always welcome to post in the forums when you would like to talk about anything that you are going through. Also, we have a chatroom if you ever wanted to talk to more people. You can make a lot of friends talking in the chatroom. Maybe you can check it out when you have time.

Does your school have groups to join? Maybe if you enjoy reading or taking pictures of music or drawing or painting or anything else and join them and then you would be able to make more friends. I am also sorry that you have not been able to talk to your therapist in a while. How about trying to talk to the school counselor and let them know about what you have been going through and just talk once a week, this can help you to feel better soon. You can pm me anytime to talk about what you are going through. Try finding something to help pick you up when you are having a hard time. I hope that you will be okay soon. Sending you to help you to feel better.

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