Triggering (SH): Violent anger. Help.

[PlutoTheOpposum]

Okay, help. These last few days I've felt so explosive. Any small thing, any small comment-- it makes me SO MAD. I'm not even kidding. Now this isn't a huge problem on it's own, but the problem is that I get really violent urges when these outbursts happen. So much so to the point I feel I could harm another person (one thing I've said I could never ever do, I didn't think I was capable of.)
I usually just channel this towards myself. I'm in a tight spot right now, and my parents know I had been SH'ing, so I can't really do that, but the urge is just so strong. I usually bite myself, and I now have bruises on my hands. I'm terrified someone will see and think somethings happening, or even worse-- my parents will see.
I don't know where this started. I mentioned it in another comment, but my mood is just ALL OVER the place. One minute, I'll be happy, and then the next I'll be fuming. It's terrifying, I can't imagine being my family having to live with me like this.
It's so bad to the point where I was singing and writing yesterday, and then jjust out of nowhere I got mad and started yelling at me sister. We switched rooms, and so now I have my own room. But it's still there.
i'm scared I'm gonna hurt someone. I don't think I'll hurt myself past biting/hitting, but idk.
I've tried distracting myself, and it usually works, but my mood is just so inconsistent that it's only temporary.

I wish I was normal lol. It probably doesn't help that I haven't seen my therapist in two months. idk
thanks for reading this far, any advice is appreciated.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello Lyl,

I am so sorry that you are having a hard time with this and I hope that you will be okay soon. When you are having a hard time with something and you start to get upset, try your best to walk away from everyone or what you are doing and go to your room if you can. Then try to take a few deep breaths and then try counting back from 10 and do this a few times. After, try to find something to help get your mind off of this for a while, if you enjoy reading then read a book for a while or drawing or painting or writing how you feel down on paper or listening to music or watching movies or TV shows or playing a game or something else that you enjoy doing.

Everyone will get upset over something, the best way for us is how do we handle this situation and how can we be okay. When we yell at others, they are not going to really understand what is wrong and what do we need help with. If we can try to stay calm or walk away from everyone for a while and then come back to talk about what you need, this is better because they will listen and be able to hear why we are upset. I hope that you will be okay soon.