Triggering: what can i do? need help

[onlyfoolingmyself]

This is kinda hard to talk about it, i dunno why but well,
3 years ago my dad started to abuse me emotionally.
my mum knows it but she doesnt really do something against it.
last time it got so horrible. i was just talking to my boyfriend over the phone and my dad overreacted, he screamed at me, said horrible things to me and he nearly hit me. ( he did that sometimes ) well this whole thing was so terrible, i screamed and my boyfriend had to listen to it.
i was shocked and my whole body shaked for an hour. i was crying and i was so scared of him. (i dunno why but i dont remember all the facts. this is everything i remember.)
now, when i see him my heart starts to race and i get so scared. and i have those flashbacks all the time when i am alone or when i have nothing to do.
it's really bad. it broke me so much.
but what can i do against it?
i wont survive more years with him. what can i do ?
thanks for reading x

[egg]

have you tried asking your mum for help? maybe if you get her to understand how you feel, things could get easier and together you could find a way to stop all this.
xx

[Blackwing]

I would speak to your mom a close family member or even a friend you can trust.

[Emily.]

Hey there Bella. I am proud of you for reaching out for some help and I want you to know that none of this is your fault. Abuse in any form is hard to deal with and when it comes from a parent, who is supposed to love and protect you, it's even harder.

Three years is a long time to have dealt with this already. I think the best thing you can do for yourself is to reach out and ask for some help. Talk with a teacher or a school counselor or even your mom if you think she will listen and help out. You don't deserve to be put through this. No one has the right to abuse you.

If you live in the US, you could also contact social services for help. The have a completely anonymous reporting system set up. This way someone will have to look into it, but you can't get in trouble for making the report.

As for the flashbacks and memories, I know those are really hard, but they can be overcome. Counseling is definitely something that can help you work through them. I truly believe it helps to talk about what we've been through and a therapist can help you find healthy ways to cope. Some things I have found that help are different grounding exercises. I have been taught a few so if you're interested in them, feel free to PM me and I can explain the ones I've used.

I hope you're doing okay right now. Keep yourself safe.
<3 Emily

[onlyfoolingmyself]

Heya,
I already talked to my mum and i dunno if it helped.
Right now everything's ok. I hope it will stay like this.

[Emily.]

I'm really glad everything is going okay for right now

I'm going to go ahead and close this thread, but feel free to start a new one if you need to.