I am so fucking stupid I really want to pass my theory test it's been years and I still can't do it cause i'm a fucking twat. I will admit I do hardly put enough effort it which is obviously my fault but I feel if I put all this effort in and fail whats the point I am so lazy!!!
I recently got a new job I now work for 02 the mobile phone company I did have a similar job like this but I worked for EE but I sadly had to resign because of my anorexia was pretty bad. I have always wanted to work around phones but I am worried in case my dyslexia stops me from doing the job I am struggling it is hard but I have only been there for 2 weeks...
I think I am doing well for someone who has only been at it for 2 weeks to be fair. One major factor I struggle with is memorising things and keeping them in my brain you can tell me something and next time you ask me I will have forgot how to do it it's either my learning issues or I am just fucking stupid.
I really want to pass my theory exam I spent so much money to learn how to drive a car it's so fucking easy but I can't do the fucking computer exam it's so stupid and biased I don't think it should even exist in my opinion lets be frank I won't remember the signs when I am driving anyway! How much should someone in my situation be practicing a day?
I am worried about my disability affecting my job I always get told off by my family for having a bad attitude towards things but I am so fucking stupid it's unreal intelligence is not something I am blessed with it's really not I can't do anything like maths, I can't tie my shoes, I can't spell very well, I don't know my left and right.
I am such a failure.