How are you beating Self Harm?

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

Yesterday I slept and today I stayed in the Chat Room.

Watching Friends. Gives me a laugh.

[hocus pocus]

I took a blade into the shower and shook as I took off the cardboard covering. I watched the droplets of water run down it and into my hand. I put the blade down. I bursted into tears instead.

Now I'm on here, talking to all of you awesome people

[Beautiful Disaster]

willpower.

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

I told my therapist I'd stay motivated.

Also sleeping.

[hocus pocus]

I opened up to my mom about some things.

Holding my kitty's new kittens. How could I possibly wanna hurt myself when a cute little kittens cuddling around my neck? Such warm feelings. I love them so much. <3

[Catharsis.]

The enticement of being one day away from five weeks is enough to stop me.

I'm only 13 days away from my last time before I slipped up. I made it two months last time. Only got 2 more weeks to go. Then I'll be back at two months. Oh and I'm totally wanting to get further than this. It motivates me.

[hocus pocus]

Today, I honestly don't know. I'm on the fence. Maybe I'll watch my calm down jars.

[Catharsis.]

Helping some people out and stuff.

[hocus pocus]

Last night, I put a glow stick on my wrist. As I was waiting for it to stop glowing, I fell asleep.

I SH when I'm feeling extremely frusturated, anxious or just F-it-all. I last did SH eight months ago.

When I feel like SH and near a computer, I open up a word document and start a fanfic. In the fanfic, whatever fandom and character I choose, I have them angst. It's a good way to release myself, having the character do it rather than myself. I know that sounds a bit bad, but it helps!

When I'm home but not near the computer, I go to the poster I made a few months ago in art. There's a whole bunch of stuff on it and they're things that make me smile. So I look at that, or pick a certain written phrase, quote or picture and just look at it. Just look and ponder. That helps get me get distracted and my mood up.

Also, if I'm home, I randomly dance either to music or to nothing. It's really helpful because it burns off some of my energy and a bit of my frustration or anxiety.

Overall, being more self-centered has helped me significantly with SH. I've been thinking about myself and putting myself and my needs first since September. Plus, I've been a bit impulsive and not in a bad way. Like at the end of August last year (when I'd only just SH a week or so earlier) I was offered a position at this retail store when I hadn't even applied. I automatically said yes without looking at what I'd be doing.

Normally, people wouldn't do that or would regret it all this time later but not me. I actually just put in another day in my work week (going from T/Th to T/W/Th) and hopefully this'll keep me occupied more.

That brings me to distraction, it's good I am nearly constantly distracted now. Although, I'm back in my fantasy world which kind of sucks. But better be in the fantasy world than inflict injuries on yourself, right??

[Catharsis.]

Trying to reach 1000 posts is a good temporary diversion

Organizing thousands of pictures into folders from the past and putting them all on my computer. Also nice seeing older nice memories.

[hocus pocus]

Listening to music and writing letters to people that I'll never actually send.

[Catharsis.]

Reading. Got through two books since Friday!

[hollywoodgirl9213]

Whenever I think about cutting, I make a list in my mind of the good things about me, and if that doesn't work, I start listing people that care about me. That helps a lot and so far I haven't cut in 4 days. It's a little accomplishment, but still one in my mind

[shininglikefireworks]

Right now, watching CSI.

Playing games.

Got a whole shelf, in my brothers room full of games. Omg I should make it to a year.

[Lumos.]

Thought about my best friend who is the reason im stopping. And she is stopping for me.

[hocus pocus]

Since it wasn't too bad of an urge, I was able to get into a TV show.

[Catharsis.]

Writing. Don't think I'll be brave enough to post my latest tragedy in Self Expression, but oh well.

Originally Posted by Oracle.

Writing. Don't think I'll be brave enough to post my latest tragedy in Self Expression, but oh well.

Post! Post! Post! Protest him, guys. Post! Post! Post!

Lately... The thought of my best friend is the only thing keeping me from self-harming.

[Catharsis.]

Originally Posted by Christabel

Post! Post! Post! Protest him, guys. Post! Post! Post!

Bleh, it isn't finished yet. But we'll see...

Um, finishing the story.

[hocus pocus]

Honestly, it's my Fibromyalgia. It's currently flared up. I'm having trouble gripping things. I think not being able to grip a blade is the only thing that's stopping me right now.

Posting like a crazy person on TeenHelp.

[LetMeBeMe!]

A few people that are proud of me..
A few kids that mean the world to me..

[hocus pocus]

I don't want to disappoint people
Taking care of this baby bird is occupying me.

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

I was a little mad at a person today and upset so when we got back to my IT class I sat at my computer and went on TH to cool down.

Thinking happy thoughts and taking care of these little kittens.

[hocus pocus]

I'm talking to a friend and posting around TH.

[hocus pocus]

I wrote a short story

Seeing my kitty's cute face looking at me.

[Catharsis.]

Sleeping.
Well, I can never fall asleep, but getting a blade while in bed would cause too much noise and possibly wake my parents up, so it stops me.

[hocus pocus]

My cat is by my side. <3

[Philomath]

Homework, packing and spending time with friends.

[hocus pocus]

I'm working on a free photography course.

[Yours Truly]

I have a lot of physical health conditions that require me to go to hospitals a lot.. If any of my doctors saw them they would discontinue some of the treatments they've done for me, because i wouldn't seem mentally stable..

That's what got me to stop in the first place.. needing to seem mentally stable. So that's motivation enough.. Even at times when I'm not, I've learned to hide it pretty well.

That, and the fact that I have 3 little brothers who found out I harmed myself.. I really want to be a good role model for them, and a good big sister.. I want them to feel like they can come to me about anything,.. So I didn't hide it from them.. They know it's something I dealt with.. But it's also something they know I'm 2 years clean from, and I don't want to let them down.. you know?

Whenever I get triggered and feel like harming myself again, I remember that and manage to distract myself.. The internet is rather helpful when it comes to distracting. :P Haha

[hocus pocus]

Right now it's because I'm working on stuff for my grandmother for mother's day. I also feel like I'm about to pass out so I guess I'm safe unconscious. I don't know how much longer I can go, though. I just figured I'd be honest.