Cutting, random, names, etc.

[Silent Heartache]

This is my first post so I'm just gunna make it a quickie.

I have been cutting for about four years, at this point I dont really even care when I do it, I do it and I don't care, nobody cares, when someone sees that I put someones name they just ask if I'll do theirs next time or something, half the time I dont even realise I'm doing it I'll just be on the phone or sitting in my room or something and ill pick up one of my knives or a razor or a peice of class or something and I'll absentmindedly start cutting then once I realise I'm doing it I usually just do a name. Half the time I cut because I'm upset or something but the other half I just do it because I'm bored. I don't really know why I'm posting this, just to find someone to talk with who knows what I'm doing and going trough... I could write my life story here and go on and on but it would take ages to get through it all so I'll save that for another time.

Ta for now...

[Translucent]

Well, I can't say that I know exactly what you're going through, I've only been SHing a little over 5 months now, but I do know how discouraging it is to call out for help and for no one to respond. I'm still new to TeenHelp, and am not very skilled with advice and the like, but if you ever just need somebody to talk or vent to, I'd be willing to listen and help in any way that I can. Not trying to imply that you absolutely must confide in me, or anything of the sort, I just know that it's better to have the option than not. [:

[Riddikulus]

Hey there,

I'm really sorry things are hard for you at the moment and i know how hard it is when you are calling out and it feels like no one is responding. People care so much about you, and I know you feel like they don't at the moment but they really do; I care and I believe in you, I know you CAN do this.
Maybe you should take a look at the alternatives thread here these will help to distract you from the urges, not all of them may work for you, it is trial and error so hang in there and you WILL find one that does.
Perhaps you should talk to someone you trust about this, such as a family member or a close friend, someone that can support you and be there when you need help.

If you ever want to talk, feel free to PM me, I am always willing to listen.
Take care and stay strong,
Charli