Triggering: Inpatient again...?

[TH Anonymous]

[SIZE="a"][SIZE="a"][SIZE="a"][SIZE="a"][SIZE="a"][SIZE="a"]Do I need to go inpatient again? Probably. I constantly wanting to commit suicide. If I'm not dead by Thursday I'm telling my school I want to kill myself but my outpatient has sent me to the ER for a few times and they think I WANT it at this point and I don't but I'm so close to killing myself. I'm scared but it's for my boyfriend. I want him to know I care, so I'm getting better for him. I cut myself again, so my arm hurts, and Wednesday when I'm waiting for the bus I planned to cut with edited. either Wednesday or Thursday I'm telling someone at school about my SI and my suicide plan. Is this a smart plan?[/size][/size][/size][/size][/size][/size]

[TH Anonymous]

[SIZE="a"]Sorry I had an episode. I didn't have my meds yet and my mind was spinning. That's how I am without my meds, with my meds I'm pretty happy.[/size]

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I do think it’s worth telling someone, even if you end up in the ER. Instead of leaving it as “I went to kill myself/self harm,” tell them in as much detail as possible what you’re going through so they can take it more seriously.

[TH Anonymous]

[SIZE="a"]I tried to tell my therapist about my SI in detail but she ignored me and said "you're not going inpatient again" and I said "I don't want too, but your my therapist, so I'm telling you the truth about my well being" and then I asked to speak with her 1-1 about it cause I wanted to give her more detail but she forgot, so today I'm emailing. If she doesn't look at it, I'm just going to my school and telling them because they will actually do something about it rather than letting me suffer in silence.[/size]

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It sounds like you know what to do in this situation which is excellent and you should be proud of yourself for. Honestly I’d look into finding a new therapist if she’s going to treat you poorly.