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January 22nd 2009, 01:03 PM
A dreamworld future. It's nothing more.
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January 22nd 2009, 02:34 PM
i see it as something that WILL happen.. faith, you gotta believe  i believe in it.
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January 22nd 2009, 02:48 PM
But why just assume that those are only dreams? As silly as it sounds, dreams can come true. You can have a wonderful happy future. Why give up on that?
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January 22nd 2009, 02:59 PM
Naaah dude, you know those are too farfetched. I'll do it in the next life.
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January 22nd 2009, 03:08 PM
Ok, so maybe you won't have mansion with an MTX track :P But what about learning to play electric guitar? Dying your hair? Buying the kind of clothes you want? Those all seem very attainable to me. Why give up on those? Why make yourself wait until the next life, assuming there even is one? Maybe there is no such thing and here and now is your only chance.
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January 22nd 2009, 03:25 PM
I'm doomed to be a tramp so it'd never work out. Plus I'd never have the money for all that!
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January 22nd 2009, 03:30 PM
Oh, come on, you could have enough money. And besides, if you were a tramp, your hair coloring could be free, just get all dirty :P
But seriously, you aren't doomed or pre-destined into any role. You can control your life. I know you have the strength and determination to do all those things and more. I mean, look at how long you're held onto the idea that no one cares and that you are worthless. If you had that kind of determination in a job/career, you could have anything you wanted.
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January 22nd 2009, 03:36 PM
Faith, how do you know what will happen in the future if you don't live it out...you aren't doomed to be tramp!!! You can be a lot of things!!! You just have to work for what you choose...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 22nd 2009, 03:48 PM
If I control my life, why can't I control when it ends?
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January 22nd 2009, 03:50 PM
As of right now you do...that is why we are trying to help you!!! So you don't decide to end it!!!
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January 22nd 2009, 03:55 PM
Siera is right. You do have control. We just love you so much and we know that your life isn't meant to end now, so we are doing everything in our power to help you and to make sure you don't make the wrong decision.
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January 22nd 2009, 04:01 PM
well if you can try doing this, try thinking of a diffrent place then earth but still be here and make it a place to be when ever your down and want to hurt yourself , and go there you can decorate the way you want it and you can change it the way you want to when ever you fell like it and no one else can no about it but you unless you want them to now about it it helped me t have a place to go when ever my parents argued or when i was feeling down and out or even when my dad was abusing my mother ,sister, and i. it helps just to have a place to go when you need it k
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January 22nd 2009, 04:29 PM
I just can't stop crying. I want to go but you keep wanting to chain me.
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January 22nd 2009, 04:32 PM
Faith, it may seem like life is horrible now, but it doesn't mean life will always hurt forever. Things will get better, but in order for that to happen, you gotta hold on. I know life can hurt. But I also know things always get better, no matter how bad things seem to you right now. You have so many people here for you that are willing to help, myself included. We all want to see you get better, and we would hurt if anything bad were to happen to you. Please, keep holding on. Because things will get better sooner or later.
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January 22nd 2009, 04:33 PM
We aren't trying to chain you. We love you so much and we want you to be happy. Death won't bring that happiness
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January 22nd 2009, 04:49 PM
Why do you keep saying it wo't bring happiness? You don't know that.
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January 22nd 2009, 04:56 PM
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Why do you keep saying it wo't bring happiness? You don't know that.
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True, we don't know that. However, I know for a fact people would be very hurt if you commited suicide. Once you're dead, you can't come back. We all care about you and want to help you. I'm proud of you for posting, that shows you want help. Keep reaching out to us, we're here to listen.
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January 22nd 2009, 05:01 PM
Well, you are right, I can't know. For you, it may bring happiness, it may bring nothingness or it may bring sadness and despair. I don't know.
I do know what it will bring for me, your family, your friends and everyone that knows you. It will bring all of us so much pain and sadness. You will be multiplying what you feel now by a thousand and spreading it among all of us.
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January 22nd 2009, 05:09 PM
It just feels like there's nothing here for me.
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January 22nd 2009, 05:15 PM
There is stuff here for you...happiness, joy, love, care....we aren't trying to chain you...we just don't want you to leave!!! We care!!! It will hurt me so much if you go...it will hurt cody too, and everyone else you know!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 22nd 2009, 05:25 PM
Love doesn't exist. I thought it did but...it just doesn't.
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January 22nd 2009, 05:36 PM
love does exist...it does...I know that it seems like it doesn't sometimes, but I love you!!! And I am pretty sure cody does too!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 22nd 2009, 05:46 PM
What is love then?
It's nothing but pain.
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January 22nd 2009, 06:15 PM
Love is not pain. Do you think I would love you if all you were is a pain to me? No, you also bring me so much happiness. When you PM me, when you tell me I've made you smile. That is worth every second I spend trying to help you.
I do love you so much. I just wish you could see that
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January 22nd 2009, 06:33 PM
Maybe it isn't though that you have towards then...I don't know. Just feels like it doesn't exist.
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January 23rd 2009, 12:31 AM
it DOES exist, faith! believe in it
thats the world..there's so many positive things to look forward to... trust me.
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January 23rd 2009, 01:27 PM
First step to recovery...finally handed in that letter to the teacher. He made me cry and I have to go see him Monday lunch. Jeez, I sound like a baby.
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January 23rd 2009, 03:17 PM
i know everything's gonna get better.
sometimes its like that.. but i have faith that it will
Those who have went through more pain than everyone else, and want to protect anyone and everyone they know and care for from that pain, are stronger than everyone.
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January 23rd 2009, 03:58 PM
Fucking hell! It's only been an hour and I've hit rock bottom!
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January 23rd 2009, 04:56 PM
No, you haven't hit rock bottom...what did your teacher do?
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January 23rd 2009, 05:17 PM
I keep missing lessons because I just have no strength to deal with the fuckers in my class!
Pardon my French.
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January 23rd 2009, 05:22 PM
Just stay calm. Everything is going to be ok. I'm so proud of you for getting the strength to hand that letter in.
Don't worry, if you're at rock bottom, that just means the only way for things to go is up. Everything is going to get better and we're all here for you, alright?
Stay strong
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January 23rd 2009, 05:24 PM
It's not alright! I'm close to tears and want to cut!
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January 23rd 2009, 05:32 PM
Faith, just stay calm, ok? Take deep breaths, try not to freak out. Everything is going to be alright. It may be really bad now, but I promise it will get better.
Can you talk to me about what's wrong?
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January 23rd 2009, 05:35 PM
Faith, I want you to do what you want to do to yourself to a pillow...any pillow...I know it sounds crazy, but it helps...okay??? I am here for you and you can talk to me if you'd like...I am not going to force you...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 23rd 2009, 05:39 PM
It's not okay! It's not ever going to be okay! I'm done! I just hope it works tonight!
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January 23rd 2009, 05:48 PM
No! Just hurt the pillow!!! I don't want you to leave!!! Please don't!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 23rd 2009, 05:49 PM
Can't stay.
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January 23rd 2009, 05:54 PM
Yes you can! Faith, you are so strong. Stronger than I will ever be. If I can stay, I know you can. Just keep fighting. Your life is worth it!
We're all here for you. Me, Siera, Darren. We're here to help, give you all the support we can, but for that to work you need to just do your best to hold on, ok?
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January 23rd 2009, 06:03 PM
I'm not going to, I'm fading away.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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