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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 25th 2009, 02:46 PM
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You don't know what death is or what happens after it.
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neither do you faith...
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January 25th 2009, 02:50 PM
I'm willing to chance it, I don't need to stay for anything. No one needs me to hang about..
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 25th 2009, 02:54 PM
I want you to fight...but i know you don't want to...
I really will miss you and I really do love you and you are really important to me and I care about you so much and I know cody would say the same thing...
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January 25th 2009, 03:00 PM
How can you 'love' and care about someone you can't even see and barely know anything about?!
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January 25th 2009, 03:13 PM
I love my friend in California. Love knows no limits.
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January 25th 2009, 03:15 PM
Well, how can you hate someone you've never seen and no nearly nothing about? Happens all the time, so why can't we just do the opposite and love you?
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January 25th 2009, 03:17 PM
You just don't feel anything towards people you can't see.
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January 25th 2009, 03:19 PM
I am good like that...I can love people I can't see...I love you and Cody and Jeff and all the nice people on TH and a bunch more people online...
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January 25th 2009, 03:24 PM
What about me?
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January 25th 2009, 03:28 PM
I love and care about alot of people I've never seen. You don't have to see something or someone to love it/them.
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January 25th 2009, 03:28 PM
You're right Faith. If you were gone the world would just keep going on without you. We're still going to be here, we're going to move on, we're going to keep living our lives.
But it's no different for you than for anyone else. The world doesn't end when any one person dies. It doesn't mean we won't care. It doesn't mean we won't be sad. We would miss you. We would wonder if there was anything else we could have done. A lot of us would never forget you, even if we don't know much about you.
I used to talk to a kid online a long time ago, and we would write fanfics and articles for our favorite videogame together. I never met him, never knew anything about him besides his screenname and his age, and one day he was just gone. I still think about him and I still miss him, and I still wonder if he's ok, if he's out there somewhere.
You can't justify wanting to die because we would live on. It has nothing to do with how much we do or don't care. Life is for the living. No one can spend their entire life worrying about those who have passed. You're just a tiny part of this world we all live in. But we're all tiny parts, and we're all just as important as each other.
Aš tave myliu, Nanny. I'm carrying your love with me.
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January 25th 2009, 03:30 PM
Amen to that!
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January 25th 2009, 03:31 PM
If I'm such a tiny part then it wouldn't matter if I just fall through the cracks then would it?
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January 25th 2009, 03:34 PM
No it would.
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January 25th 2009, 03:38 PM
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If I'm such a tiny part then it wouldn't matter if I just fall through the cracks then would it?
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Wouldn't matter to who? To the universe? Who knows... I like to think that whatever powers may be have put us here and kept us each alive this far because it's the way the universe is supposed to be. So you taking your own life when you're meant to be here does matter to the universe.
It matters to a lot of people here. Some of the people here know you and talk to you quite often. Others, like me, have only spoken to you a few times. Some haven't ever said anything to you. But most of us can agree that it matters if you die. If we as humans have nothing else in the world, we have opportunities. We have a chance to do something with life. You taking your chance away matters.
Will the world turn completely upside down if you die? Probably not. It wouldn't if I died either. That's completely unrelated to how much your life is worth though. There's a lot I can do with my life. There are so many people I will come in contact with, and in one way or another, even in some tiny, unrecognizable way, I will affect them. You affect us too. You affect everyone you meet.
So the world would keep going on just fine if you die. So what? It'll keep going on just fine if you're alive too, and then at least you can be here to play your part and see how it all plays out.
Aš tave myliu, Nanny. I'm carrying your love with me.
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January 25th 2009, 03:46 PM
It would matter to me!!! It would matter to cody and everyone who posted on here...
Confused-I said nice people on TH that is you too...
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January 25th 2009, 03:53 PM
It just doesn't feel like it and I don't know why...I'm just all set to go to tonight so...
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 25th 2009, 03:59 PM
So reschedule. This isn't some appointment you have to keep because everything is set up. This is your life. You need to give yourself a little more worth. Stop worrying how much you mean to this giant world we live in. That doesn't matter. You're here; you deserve to be here. If you didn't deserve life, you sure wouldn't be given the power to take it away yourself. That would have been done for you without any decision on your part. So realize just how much power and how much OPPORTUNITY you have and use it to LIVE instead of using it to die! If you use it to live, you get to use it over and over and over again and who knows how much you can accomplish and how much importance you can create for yourself! If you use it to die, you lose it, and you've gained nothing from having it at all.
Aš tave myliu, Nanny. I'm carrying your love with me.
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January 25th 2009, 04:05 PM
well you don't have to go..you have people who care and want to help you...
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January 25th 2009, 04:07 PM
I want to, I just don't want to send you into hysterics like last time.
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January 25th 2009, 04:11 PM
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I want to, I just don't want to send you into hysterics like last time.
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I don't know about anyone else, but I'm pretty sure you deciding to end your life would cause more hysterics than anything else you could possibly say to any of us.
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January 25th 2009, 04:15 PM
Lyndsay is right. If you don't want to hurt us or anything, ending your life is not the way to do that
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January 25th 2009, 04:19 PM
How could you possibly think killing yourself wouldnt put your friends into hysterics?
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January 25th 2009, 04:20 PM
There's nothing I want out of life though.
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January 25th 2009, 04:35 PM
If you don't want anything then why do you care what you do to me? Why do you not want to hurt us...That is something you want in life, for us to be happy.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 25th 2009, 04:38 PM
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There's nothing I want out of life though.
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In order to make that statement, you have to consider, witness, and experience everything possible in life. I doubt you have done that. Just because you feel empty right now doesn't mean there's nothing out there that you can't find happiness in. Sometimes it's not even that you have to find new things, but rather that you have to find new ways to look at old things. That's life. I personally find it amazing to see a new side of something. That feeling of epiphany and enlightenment just looking at something more deeply and with an open mind is enough to make life worth it all on its own.
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January 25th 2009, 04:40 PM
I don't know, I just don't want you to be as bad as you described before.
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January 25th 2009, 04:44 PM
See...you care about how I feel...you care a little at least and that shows that you are a good person and you deserve life...you can hold on faith, I know you can...
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January 25th 2009, 04:50 PM
I don't want to hold on.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 25th 2009, 05:02 PM
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I don't want to hold on.
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Then stop thinking of life as "holding on" to something. It's so much more than that. It's creating, destroying, changing, fixing, listening, speaking, searching, waiting, holding on, AND letting go. Instead of holding on to your problems and letting go of your opportunities, let go of your hopelessness and your apathy towards life and hold on to the chance you have to do everything else.
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January 25th 2009, 05:08 PM
Faith, I really hope that you don't kill yourself...Because I will miss you and it will hurt, but mostly I don't want you to kill yourself because you are a good person...
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January 25th 2009, 11:48 PM
Faith,
Please take this quote and hold on to it.... I hope that you will find some solace in its words:
Go within every day and find the inner strength so that the world will not blow your candle out. - K. Dunham
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January 26th 2009, 01:48 AM
I'm still here and thie rather fucked up morning. Not to keen on going to school but...think tonight might be my escape night.
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January 26th 2009, 02:00 AM
I'm so glad you're still here. I'm never to keen on school, lol.
What makes this morning so bad?
Don't think of it as an escape. If we're not allowed to tell you that you'll go somewhere worse, you're not allowed to assume it will be better than what you have now.
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January 26th 2009, 11:07 AM
School was a hell of a lot worse, I can't concentrate on the work so my grades are going to plummit come exam time. There's just nothing to stay for and I'm ready to just break down and cry! It keeps hurting to breathe. It just feels like no one needs me to stay and I don't need to stay here for anything.
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January 26th 2009, 03:17 PM
Please Faith dont do it. I had a panic attack today in the middle of my classes. And if you do it there going to be alot worse.
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January 26th 2009, 03:48 PM
I need you here...if that means anything...which it probably doesn't...but, I really hope that you will stay alive...I want you to so much...I love you and care about you and you are so important to me...
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January 26th 2009, 04:51 PM
I don't know what to say to that, today what you said touched me and I don't know why. My emotions keep changing....ugh I want to go but I don't want to send you people into hysterics.
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January 26th 2009, 05:15 PM
I am glad that you finally got what I was saying... But, this isn't about us, this is about you...I know you want to...I know that life hurts but we want you here...the choice is yours...but we all want you to stay...we all want you to stay more than words can describe...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 26th 2009, 05:16 PM
That doesn't explain why you want me to stay though, I give you people nothing but crap but you still hold onto me and I don't understand why.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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