Feel like I'm in a dream(I don't feel totally there) - Sudden random feelings of emptiness/fear/depression for no reason

[MisterCJP]

Hi there, I have been having some extremely strange feelings over the past week-it started as just feeling slightly dazed all day, like I wasn't all there. A few days later I started getting these super random flashes of depression, emptiness and fear, usually when listening to friends, co-workers or even people on TV talk...? The dizzy feeling is still there and its so strange because I haven't lost any of my ability to focus on what people are saying or what is going on around me, so one way I could kind of explain it is that it feels like I'm in a video game but its third person and my person is carrying out tasks and doing things, but I'm not really there. This is extremely new for me, I have never had a history of any mental health issues, but I thought that it might be triggered by the fact that I have been extremely stressed out over the past year, as I have been trying to balance a job as well as doing online school at the same time. I haven't seen a doctor yet because I'm worried that he might perscribe me with some sort of anti-depressant or something and I really really don't want to be on any medication and I'd like to sort this out myself if at all possible.
Please if anyone has any information or has dealt with this as well anything you could suggest would help

[Music]

Hi there,
I would suggest seeing a doctor, they won't force you to take any medication if you don't want to (they can't do that unless you're a threat to yourself or others which you don't sound like you are) but they might be able to direct you to counselling or therapy services in your area that might help you.
Until then I would suggest you learn some grounding techniques. My personal favourite is focusing on your surroundings, You start by focusing on the feeling of your clothes touching your skin, then the feeling of your feet touching the ground, wiggle your toes in your socks and pay attention to how it feels, pay attention to your breathing, your heartbeat, run warm water on your hands, etc.
There are more grounding techniques available here which I would urge you to look through and pick a few to try.