A whole 'nother year of detachment, oh the joys. Normally Christmas made me excited, but this year I almost forgot it was christmas, it just felt like a totally normal day and I acted like nothing was special... I didn't feel happy, I didn't feel sad, I felt nothing. It's painful trying to live with a distorted unreal view of the world, almost killed me once or twice this year. And I don't regret those times I considered/attempted suicide, I still really wish they'd happened, 3 months on...
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