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Posted December 16th 2010 at 12:56 AM by xX-anna-Xx
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everything isnt the same anymore. nobody is. its just sad. it makes me just wanna curl up ina ball and die. i may seem like a happy person on the outside , but thats only because of my medicine.
on the inside. im hurting. i cant eat. i feeel like im going to puke everytime. i can hardly even eat a grilled cheese anymore without wanting to puke. i know this is all about help , which this is what im trying to do.
i've been in 2 programs for depresssion and just got out of Harbor Oaks a few weeks ago. so far its been alright. i've only cutted once sence i got out. i know its not good, but when your life is nothing to you and you feel like complete crap alll the time. and you feeel nothing at alll , cutting even the little pain , will make you realize your still alive . your not always numb. sorrry for all my bad spellling btw /:
im going to be writing everyday. its a good way to get out things. you dont have to read it if you dont want to..
i also think im making me boyfriend more and more depressed by never being able to see him besides in schoool.
what do you guys think i should do ? ..
and trying to get my parents to is not gonna work. thats how i got grounded this time for asking if he could come over.
uurg , fml..
on the inside. im hurting. i cant eat. i feeel like im going to puke everytime. i can hardly even eat a grilled cheese anymore without wanting to puke. i know this is all about help , which this is what im trying to do.
i've been in 2 programs for depresssion and just got out of Harbor Oaks a few weeks ago. so far its been alright. i've only cutted once sence i got out. i know its not good, but when your life is nothing to you and you feel like complete crap alll the time. and you feeel nothing at alll , cutting even the little pain , will make you realize your still alive . your not always numb. sorrry for all my bad spellling btw /:
im going to be writing everyday. its a good way to get out things. you dont have to read it if you dont want to..
i also think im making me boyfriend more and more depressed by never being able to see him besides in schoool.
what do you guys think i should do ? ..
and trying to get my parents to is not gonna work. thats how i got grounded this time for asking if he could come over.
uurg , fml..
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I would like to see you more besides school..
but your family obviously doesn't like me..Posted December 21st 2010 at 01:29 AM by fireblizzard543
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some of them do..Posted December 21st 2010 at 02:16 AM by xX-anna-Xx
