well idk how to explain it all since it's been happening for months now...

Lately i feel like i'm...disgusting...because i'm Bi. I grew up in church, nd i know God exists and i've experienced him, but i feel like i'm disgusting to him. i can't really help that i find sum girls attractive nd i know i have the capability to fall in love with them...(i'm not the kinda bi who just wants to hook up wit girls, or who wants attention)

Only a handful of my frends know, as in...

just 4 the record. i didn't kill daniel, but i wish he would die.

I don't understand him. I mean i know he's not ur average guy. Moved down to where i am from NYC. he's in a gang and he's pretty street. but he makes me so mad!!!

We met in october, don't even remember how he found me. but we hooked up same week. (i know, i already regret it) Eitherway we stopped talking for awhile. then he decides to start talking to me again in March. And whenever i was having a bad day...

Well today is officially my last day of school. I will be entering my Senior year of highschool. I feel so old not gonna lie.

What's strange is ever since i've started highschool i couldn't wait to be graduated and start college. I took a couple courses at a college on summer and i like the way that it's set up much better than highschool. But now that i'm entering my last year of highschool i'm not sure i'm ready to be graduating.

Maybe i'm not ready to leave the somewhat...