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Last Day of School!!!
Posted May 21st 2009 at 04:54 PM by vee_vee
Well today is officially my last day of school. I will be entering my Senior year of highschool. I feel so old not gonna lie.
What's strange is ever since i've started highschool i couldn't wait to be graduated and start college. I took a couple courses at a college on summer and i like the way that it's set up much better than highschool. But now that i'm entering my last year of highschool i'm not sure i'm ready to be graduating.
Maybe i'm not ready to leave the somewhat safety of highschool and not having to be completely responsible for myself. But ironically those were the very same things that i complained about highschool and why i wanted to leave. I felt like i was treated too much like a kid and wanted more responsiblity, but now that i'm almost ready to recieve all of that responsibility i'm not sure i want it.
I know i could handle it, but i don't want to. To whom much is given, much is required. And i'm not sure i'm ready to see exactly what is required of me. I wanna be on my own, and i'm not afraid of being alone. I guess i'm just so used to having people always with me. I know my parents aren't ready for this. We're going 'college shopping' this summer as my mother calls it.
I guess i'm just afraid i'll somehow fail miserably. I always find a way to mess up in a way that's supposed to be impossible. lol
Oh well bring it on. I love a good adventure. Just one more year to live it up and be childish.
What's strange is ever since i've started highschool i couldn't wait to be graduated and start college. I took a couple courses at a college on summer and i like the way that it's set up much better than highschool. But now that i'm entering my last year of highschool i'm not sure i'm ready to be graduating.
Maybe i'm not ready to leave the somewhat safety of highschool and not having to be completely responsible for myself. But ironically those were the very same things that i complained about highschool and why i wanted to leave. I felt like i was treated too much like a kid and wanted more responsiblity, but now that i'm almost ready to recieve all of that responsibility i'm not sure i want it.
I know i could handle it, but i don't want to. To whom much is given, much is required. And i'm not sure i'm ready to see exactly what is required of me. I wanna be on my own, and i'm not afraid of being alone. I guess i'm just so used to having people always with me. I know my parents aren't ready for this. We're going 'college shopping' this summer as my mother calls it.
I guess i'm just afraid i'll somehow fail miserably. I always find a way to mess up in a way that's supposed to be impossible. lol
Oh well bring it on. I love a good adventure. Just one more year to live it up and be childish.
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