Feeling down, I promised myself I wouldn't do this, I promised I would stay strong, but I'm slipping, slipping big time.
I don't know what to do... I can't stay happy... Something will always bring me fucking down, even if nothing's wrong...
What do i do? I try so fucking hard... I do things I like, but something will make it turn to shit.
I think it was this girl L who brough me down... She invaded running club, somewhere I'm free, away from all the bitches at school... But...

This marks the begining of life long happiness..
No matter what life throws at me, no matter how I want to feel I will never be depressed and never cut again!
Done!

Best match of my life!

http://www.skysports.com/video/inlin...,16483,00.html

So I believe that sums up the game in 1!!!!

I would do a detailed report but as you can see, takes too long!

But 7-1 :sho ck:
We were meant to lose!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UTP!

"You've been in a funny mood all day, not pleasant to be around."
You think? You think I'm in a funny mood? Yeah I am, so what? I have the right to be in a bad mood, I can't keep this pretence up forever can I? No I can't I need a break from it when it gets too tough! If I'm unpleasant to be around, fuck off out the way! I don't give a fuck what you think! Not today, today you could uncover the truth and I wouldn't deny it, any excuse for our 'thing' to be wrecked, so I could abandon...

So most of this is coming off the commentary as sadly, I couldn’t get to the match at Stevenage in which only 700 fans made. Due to the online radio going faulty I missed the first 12 minutes of play, but I got the gist of what happened.

The volume at Broadhall Way was immense; all the fans were excited at the prospect of staying in the carling cup and the possibility of playing great teams like Manchester United and Arsenal.
Peterborough United the better team dominated at...

I want to be great at gaming, not just the best in my group, the best in the school and get my names on leaderboards, I want to be naturally talented at stuff like everyone else seems...

A/N I was going to write this yesterday evening, but I was rather exhausted and I was rather hyper, so much so I could hardly type. The match yesterday was epic! So good to be back at London Road, watching the boro’ boys on the pitch!

At first, I though a repeat of the last championships was going to happen, with Crystal Palace nearly scoring right at the beginning! But then we seemed to get it back, thank goodness, and it felt as if we were dominating the game. Sadly, a goal was...

Not up to anything today, just wanted to stay in bed and not face the world.
Didn't happen, as soon as it reached 10.30 I was forced out of bed...
And now I have to go out shopping with her and I really don't want to...
Really not up to moving or talking or trying stuff I don't want on...
Not sure how to get through today, already cut and punched myself...
And the window cleaner was perving on me in the shower (he was doing the window) but I was tryring to use the...

I Think...

I know what I need, someone who cares, someone to look after me, not mum or nan or even my current friends, someone new, maybe someone to date, but more someone to be close to, someone easy to talk to, where I can rest my head upon their shoulder, hug them and cry around them.
I guess it's a good thing that i know what I need to start to be happier... It won't bring the happiness but I would sure as help to rid the badness... But I'll never ever get someone like that...