Yesterday was AMAZING!
Gabriel Zakuani spoke to me
Then retweeted me
None of you will know him but he's famous
Well... to me he is. He's PUFC's greatest centre back ever!
Man of Steel!
Gets in the championship team of the week nearly every week!
Legend!
And he spoke to me
This is the best thing ever!
And all because of the buses!
Buses are the best!
...

...
Its Posh we are and Posh we feel
United we all stand
We're telling you
Support the blues!
The best team in the land wooooah!
Peterborough, Peterborough, Peterborough
La La La

Blame Hollie (Ghost.) for this JK..
But it is AMAZING!

You'll love this and you know it!

Can't believe I'm not on staff anymore
Sad but necessery.
And don't have to worry about my spelling
yeah...

Not sure what to think!
I haven't cut... That's a good thing right?
But I was sad.
Lonely.
Afraid.
I needed to do something.
I'm screwed my stomach up to say the least.
I sat there scratching away.
Parts of it bled.
And I feel like I've let myself down.
It was either 3 or 4 months
months!
And I go do this.
I don't know whether to keep counting.
It wasn't with a blade.
I was meant to keep my nail blunt anyway....

I feel:

• Hopeful
• Scared
• Embarressed
• Excited
• Thick
• Fat
• Ugly
• Confused
• Desperate
• Strong
• Helpful
• Sad
• Useful
• Disappointed
• Content

Feeling Sad. Embarassed.
Why always me?
It's selfish right? To feel this way.
It's not fair.
How can I face them?
How can I face Monday.
A week today. Fuck.
Too many people know
Too many people will know
They'll laugh
They'll think I'm stupid.
Maybe I am.
Well. I have to be.
Banned from wearing it. I think.
Want to anyway. Who cares if they take another?
I do.
I know I do.
It was my pride. My joy....

Just handed in my resignation to Rob.
I'm coming off staff.
Sad about it but definately needed!
Can't concentrate on my work when here and got a rough time when I go back.
Exams!
When I'm older and stuff I might be able to go back to staff! I hope so!
I'm going to be around here still, but a lot less.
So if any of you guys want my number or my facebook or my twitter feel free to ask!
Love You All!
Xxx

Sometimes I think I'm recovering, I think I am...
But then I get this nagging feeling, the one that says I'll never recover...
But I will... I have to right?
Feeling a bit down, I mean I'm well exited for xmas and stuff but I've just realized something, something sad but very necessery.
I think life is starting to feel right... I think life is the right option now?
I'm not sure... But this is certainly an improvement...
And I've beem genuinely smiling a bit recently......

Let my guard down a bit... But not sure if that's actually a good thing...
Got mock results today and a friend (not a best friend but we get on) was crying and talking to me on the computer...
Well obviously I didn't like it and reacted like I would to someone here...
She stopped crying and called me a sweetie
Inside I like that... Made me happy...
But y'know... I'm known as the strong unsensitive one... Hopeless with crying people... Blunt.
I never let my...

My throat hurts...
Can bearly utter a word...
Back on paracetamol and stuff with caffiene..
Love that.. gives me energy.. makes me feel better..
So glad I don't have real school tomorrow and just clothes show...
Not buying anything but it's a good chance to talk to C and make her love me.
I moan too much...
I should be fortunate for all I have...
Next time I talk about me or moan please stop me..
Tell me to get real and stop being stupid!