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Shit happens, then I die
Posted December 19th 2011 at 04:26 PM by Troubled_Heart
Feeling Sad. Embarassed.
Why always me?
It's selfish right? To feel this way.
It's not fair.
How can I face them?
How can I face Monday.
A week today. Fuck.
Too many people know
Too many people will know
They'll laugh
They'll think I'm stupid.
Maybe I am.
Well. I have to be.
Banned from wearing it. I think.
Want to anyway. Who cares if they take another?
I do.
I know I do.
It was my pride. My joy.
It was getting me through it all.
Stupid I know.
Laying everything I am, I know, into a fucking hat.
A hat I kind of predicted would be taken.
Maybe that's why.
Maybe I did this for a reason.
I'm hardly coping now I quit.
I know that.
Quitting was for the best though.
Well I think it was.
I still want to.
I always want to.
I'm messed up. Beyond repair.
Sensitive. Too Sensitive.
So what? My hat got stolen.
Happens to everyone. It's nothing.
Loads of people have had more than that taken.
I guess it's because where it happened.
My safe place.
The place I forget everything.
Obviously I'm not allowed that.
Maybe I've been so bad I have to have it all the time.
God must hate me.
I don't even believe in him.
Well... I try not too... Otherwise I know for sure I'm going to hell.
Not that Earth's much better.
Probably worse. Never wanted to die so much.
Never wanted to cry so much.
Why always me?
It's selfish right? To feel this way.
It's not fair.
How can I face them?
How can I face Monday.
A week today. Fuck.
Too many people know
Too many people will know
They'll laugh
They'll think I'm stupid.
Maybe I am.
Well. I have to be.
Banned from wearing it. I think.
Want to anyway. Who cares if they take another?
I do.
I know I do.
It was my pride. My joy.
It was getting me through it all.
Stupid I know.
Laying everything I am, I know, into a fucking hat.
A hat I kind of predicted would be taken.
Maybe that's why.
Maybe I did this for a reason.
I'm hardly coping now I quit.
I know that.
Quitting was for the best though.
Well I think it was.
I still want to.
I always want to.
I'm messed up. Beyond repair.
Sensitive. Too Sensitive.
So what? My hat got stolen.
Happens to everyone. It's nothing.
Loads of people have had more than that taken.
I guess it's because where it happened.
My safe place.
The place I forget everything.
Obviously I'm not allowed that.
Maybe I've been so bad I have to have it all the time.
God must hate me.
I don't even believe in him.
Well... I try not too... Otherwise I know for sure I'm going to hell.
Not that Earth's much better.
Probably worse. Never wanted to die so much.
Never wanted to cry so much.
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i'm sorry youre goin through so much. things will get better though. i promise. you were coping for so long and i'm very proud of you for it. i know you can do it. i believe in you
Posted December 19th 2011 at 06:17 PM by zombiehunterforhire
