Out of Order - swearing

She's bang out of order, how dare she make me feel guilty to the point of crying that I don't want to be an optometrist. If I don't want to do it then I shouldn't be made to feel guilty!

Everyone changes their mind, I don't even need to have a job in mind at this age. Urg she's a fucking bitch! As if I'd let her work for me, I don't want to see her again and af if I care about getting a job?

I don't plan on living that long anyway! She hasn't a clue about me, sometimes I think she's not worth me trying to be nice, that I should just be myself and wreck our 'relationship' I hate her fucking guts! I hate that she brought me into this world, I hate that she drove my bastard father away and I hate that she made me self harm! She's a lonely, pathetic, fat, ugly, life-wrecker! I want her to die! I want her to get a fucking disease and die! I deserve to be alone and I'd rather be alone than with her!

I sound like such a bitch, I hate what she does to me, I'm not always this spoilt, I don't know what's wrong with me but I can't help but agree with everything I've just said... This is shit!