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Swearing, Fustrated, Idiot!
Posted July 1st 2011 at 06:12 PM by Troubled_Heart
Why is life so confusing? Why can things never be completely good? It just shows what a failure I am, I'm pathetic! I say 'oh yeah I can throw it!' and everyone's expecting me to chuck it miles and win my miles and what do I do? Come third! Fucking third! I've won every year apart from today! And that's not the worst bit! I came 7th in Long Jump! I mean 7th is completely crap! I mean worse then crap! I mean SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT! I'm meant to be sporty, I'm meant to do well at this, I'm meant to represent the bastard stuck up school... But why bother? All I do is fail and fail again! My friend did shot, she says she can't throw for her life... she's a liar! She came 2nd and beat my PB by metres... the girl that won came 1st in discus... Bitch! She's new aswell, she's not proper kings! She's dreadful... a completely bully, full of herself... evil! Not as evil as me though... If I didn't know better I'd have attacked her... She'd have squashed me... and I'd have been pleased... I deserve to be squashed, I deserve to be black and blue, especially after today's performance! STUPID STUPID STUPID GIRL! YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN 15 FUCKING METERS... YOU KNOW YOU CAN THROW TO WIN! IDIOT! WEAKLING! FUCKING TWAT!
I am weak, y'know I got a Posh shirt today, I don't deserve it! I shouldn't fight myself, I should let myself fall to pieces and die, nobody would miss me, I'm not worth missing, I've failed in this and I'll fail in running on Tuesday! Don't know why I should wait, I have no reason to live, I shouldn't live for the good things and I want to escape the bad.
Why did you buy the shirt? Why did you give yourself something good? I should be fat, I deserve the pain of being fat, I don't deserve to be thin, I don't deserve to be happy, I want to get out of this world, move on to the next, just burn in hell forever more... I like that thought, I want to go to hell!
I am weak, y'know I got a Posh shirt today, I don't deserve it! I shouldn't fight myself, I should let myself fall to pieces and die, nobody would miss me, I'm not worth missing, I've failed in this and I'll fail in running on Tuesday! Don't know why I should wait, I have no reason to live, I shouldn't live for the good things and I want to escape the bad.
Why did you buy the shirt? Why did you give yourself something good? I should be fat, I deserve the pain of being fat, I don't deserve to be thin, I don't deserve to be happy, I want to get out of this world, move on to the next, just burn in hell forever more... I like that thought, I want to go to hell!
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Hello m'darling;
I've never actually spoken to you before so I won't pretend that I know you very well BUT I have seen your conversation on my friend's profile and you DO have a lot of super positive energy about you, just flowing. And that energy is part of why I'm actually writing this right now...seeing you being all positive inspired me to be positive, to be honest. You deserve to be here. You definitely deserve to be here. You haven't failed, there are just off days. Seriously. I felt like this all week...I had 19 hours of dance and I completely messed up ALL of them and was the worst in the class..and I'm supposed to be representing my studio? But I came to the realization that it'll get better if I keep up my energy and just keep PUSHING. If you just keep pushing, you'll be right where you want to be. I prrroooomise. Don't give up, and good luck
Posted July 1st 2011 at 08:20 PM by bailatyvm
