Better or not here I come. So move out of the way mother cause I'm going out in the world head on. I don't need you to shelter me and not everything can be about you so just chill. I can handle my own. I can finally live a day without SH. You were never there for me and you still aren't. But...that's fine cause I'm healing and I'm ready for whatever you want to dish out. I'm done taking crap from you so move out of the way cause here I come!

I'm so sick and tired of hearing the same stuff over and over again. "You need to help your mom" "She's under so much stress" "You have to understand she just had a baby". Well guess what I'm 14 years old. I know what I need to do. But the fact that I get no respect from her makes me want to scream. If she were nicer then I would be nicer. But she's not. Even after having the baby. I thought parents were suppose to be happy and grateful? Not yelling and always mad....

I thought things were supose to change. I thougth things were supose to get better. Why aren't they? Why do they just get worse and worse? Are thay going to stay like this or will it get better or worse?

My mom just doesn't understand me at all. Everytime I talk to her she yells at me. Which makes me want to SH. I don't know how to make her understand that she is going to push me away and I'm never going to want to see her. Well I guess I need to think this through...Bye for now.