So, I deffinately like G., I dont like M. anymore, but now I also like G ans M's friend. Im messed up, I cant stay on one person. seriously, someone could be sweet to me, and Ill start likeing them. Then Sumpad had an "episode" as I like to call them. Oh well. I was there for her, and she was there for me. Im glad we is friends, cant wait till Nashville...

Sum sum is amazing, her and her......problems...........lolololololol jkjkjkjkjkjk I <3 you sum sum! lol, i still cant believe she got who I like, that was awesome.....
"WAIT GARY???" lol hahahahahahahahaha your so funny

So, basically, I like a freshman, and my best friends boyfriend.......I pick the best ones!!!!!!!!!! lol, not really. I kinda suck............well my sentance or two is done....bye

P.S. FFFFUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKK (thats how my week has been otherwise)

So I'm not failing math, I got a D+ on the exam, and am getting a C- in the class....yay, passing, but just barely....at least I get to stay in show choir........lol, I cant wait to see RENT on Thursday....I LOVE RENT!!!!!!!! cant wait to see it LIVE! hahahahahahahahaha....okay, going a little bit crazy here cooped up at home...gotta go to the docs at 330 cuz ma said so........hopefully Ill be able to perform, but even if he says I cant, I still will! hahahahahahahahahaahha, go screwing over doctors...

To make a long (and boring) story short...I just failed my IM3 exam. I dont need to know that math shit, all I ineed is statistics, but I needed to take IM3 and IM4 before I can take stats, so thats what Im doing, and to get scholarship money I need a B average throughout all 4 years of High School. Freshman yaer = 1 F (English), so that average went from B to C. This year (Junior) it's going to go from C to D...OMFGM! Ahhhh....listening to the Mamma Mia music that we arent doing for YTBN...aka...

BUFFY
Life's a show
And we all play our parts
And when the music starts
We open up our hearts

It's all right
If some things come out wrong
We'll sing a happy song
And you can sing along

Where's there's life
There's hope, everyday's a gift
Wishes can come true
Whistle while you work
So hard all day
To be like other girls
To fit in in this glittering world

Don't give...

Listening to Buffy makes things better! lol. I used to have a facebook and myspace (which my mom had no idea about) and thats where I wrote everything. But then my mom was all "i dont want you having those things until your 18!" so they went bye bye! Shes trying to control me before I turn 18 and Im gone. I cant fucking wait! Last night we were balancing my checkbook, and there were 1 or 2 things that I forgot to put in, but they were each like 2 dollars, so youd think its not a big deal...

This is my first ever going to a website like this, so idk really what to say...I guess I will start with my problem. I am a 17 year old girl, and as my user name states, I am tired of being. I went to a shrink when I was in 6th grade, but that did shit to help. I am very good at concealing all my problems, seeing as I still go undiagnosed. I just want to die some days. more so when things are going well then when things aren't. I feel bad for putting up this charade with my friends and family,...