I think I'm falling in love!

Or at least a crush, or something, but there's this girl Sasha who goes to the same meeting as me, and I noticed it the first time. She is super adorable! Just so cute! And I got to sit next to her today, I've never felt like this before. I just really want her to like me too, even though I won't be able to start anything. It'd just be nice to at least be friends, too bad college is in the way. But I'll have to keep an eye on her, it's a shame that there's no easy way to know if she's even into girls, but I'll keep sending the signals.

She called to get my email address right after the meeting, shows that she at least has enough guts to call me! Let's just hope she has more than that, I wouldn't mind having my first fling be with her. Super amazing. I'm just hoping she is just as cute on the inside as she is on the outside. Ahaha I'd so go butch for that!

Other than that amazing thing going on, today hasn't been too bad. My mother's getting depressed (maybe going into a low, I'm not sure) and the meetings I had today were kind of fun. Actually got to contribute to one of them!! Was late to the other, but there are worse things in the world. Have a lot of schoolwork to get through and get to go to a little training in tolerance this Friday (of my own accord thank you!) and have a fabulous idea for a novel that you don't get to hear yet! I'll post a sample when I hit the 100th page.

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I did pull out the safety pins again today, I'm starting to wonder why. All I could think about all day was how I wanted to do it again. But there's not enough room on my arm, I'll have to figure out some sort of strategy. It now looks like I cut, the scratches are far too uniform to be an accident so I can't cover it up like I usually can. Not sure how I feel about that. This is something I never thought I'd run into in my life, but here it is. Oh well.

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Blacked out the text because I didn't want to take the chance of someone reading something they didn't want to. But overall, good day, should be better tomorrow, and Friday's looking even better! Hoping that I don't have to go down to see my dying step-grandfather this weekend, my family just doesn't have that energy.

Well, time to go to bed then, my eyes are burning and I have to give a report to leadership tomorrow. Until next time!