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The life and lies of the so called schizoaffective, paranoid enby, Raphael.
If you don't know what that means, look it up. I hate myself.
If you don't know what that means, look it up. I hate myself.
Wonderful Update
Posted August 5th 2014 at 07:49 AM by The Darkness
It's been like most than a year since I last posted and I can say my life has gotten so good now.
Yeah shocking! I no more feel the need to be all dark and gloomy.
I actually think it might be the medications.
Wow long story. Here's the short version: met people on twitter, got close to 3 of them, got crushes on two of them, the one I crushed over the most became an asshole, emotions he evoked onto me made me lose my mind and sent to the hospital for 3 weeks, came back ended friendship with him, became closest friend to other one I crushed over (whose name is Evan), we met irl, we got togther, the 11th is our 1 year anniversary, yay. Me and Evan are cute best couple best friends I just finished writing his anniversary letter. Don't tell him yet but I gave him a My Little Pony Rarity doll because it goes with this song we connected to called Scales where the song says "I'll hold you my dear, my only love, my Rarity" so it works out. It's super silly but it's like the greatest idea I've ever had so far for a gift like wow I can't wait until he gets it sadhlajslklfkhslhdf
I laugh because I'm so head over heels over him. He's seriously the best thing in my life right now. I have such strong feeling that I want to marry him one day and spend my life with him forever. I feel so much more love to him than how much I felt back then with my ex.
I don't feel as distressed as I felt back in June 2013 which was when the emotions evoked destroyed me. I mostly say it's the meds. I don't feel sad anymore and I rarely hear the voices or hallucinate, and I don't get so anxious as I did before. I really feel better now.
I'm starting college in a few weeks. It's really intense but I'm so determined to start to create my adult life.
Everything is just so good now.
"The clouds have never met me, but I will meet them when I'm ready." Becky's New Car-That Handsome Devil
Yeah shocking! I no more feel the need to be all dark and gloomy.
I actually think it might be the medications.
Wow long story. Here's the short version: met people on twitter, got close to 3 of them, got crushes on two of them, the one I crushed over the most became an asshole, emotions he evoked onto me made me lose my mind and sent to the hospital for 3 weeks, came back ended friendship with him, became closest friend to other one I crushed over (whose name is Evan), we met irl, we got togther, the 11th is our 1 year anniversary, yay. Me and Evan are cute best couple best friends I just finished writing his anniversary letter. Don't tell him yet but I gave him a My Little Pony Rarity doll because it goes with this song we connected to called Scales where the song says "I'll hold you my dear, my only love, my Rarity" so it works out. It's super silly but it's like the greatest idea I've ever had so far for a gift like wow I can't wait until he gets it sadhlajslklfkhslhdf
I laugh because I'm so head over heels over him. He's seriously the best thing in my life right now. I have such strong feeling that I want to marry him one day and spend my life with him forever. I feel so much more love to him than how much I felt back then with my ex.
I don't feel as distressed as I felt back in June 2013 which was when the emotions evoked destroyed me. I mostly say it's the meds. I don't feel sad anymore and I rarely hear the voices or hallucinate, and I don't get so anxious as I did before. I really feel better now.
I'm starting college in a few weeks. It's really intense but I'm so determined to start to create my adult life.
Everything is just so good now.
"The clouds have never met me, but I will meet them when I'm ready." Becky's New Car-That Handsome Devil
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It seems like a ton has happened but I am so glad that at least most of the things have been positive and things are starting to look up. Like you and Evan do seem cute, and that song does seem really nice. I find it to be a good idea and I bet he will love it!
It seems as if you are making such wonderful progress and I hope it continues.Posted August 7th 2014 at 02:15 AM by ¯|_(ツ)_|¯
