Renewing this thing once more. I actually plan on writing in this more 'cause I feel down when I see no notes on my Tumblr and because I now have greater access to this site (though, due to recent unforseen events, I fear that privilage is going to go away (let's cross our fingers and hope to god not (even though, knowing god, he'll do it anyways (even though I don't even believe god exsists so (I'll tell you what, god, if you exsist, don't let anything happen with the entire other forum and the...

I renewed this blog.
I made it new, fresh, and strangely reminding me of white, padded rooms, which is not good 'cause those things scare me.
And reminds me that my sister is always saying to my mom in a non joking way, that she needs to get me into one of those rooms. How rude is that?
Anyways, since I last posted, I've given up on fear the obsession. It's more of a cannot forget this now.
Sometimes I wonder if I intentionally trigger myself of that, like smelling...