Untitled song

Blocking the outside world from my dark mind
Can't last forever
But this escape is better than reality
So I let it take over
Sometimes I just don't want to stay strong
Are these feelings so wrong?
I pull the knife across my skin
Lift the bottle to my lips
Swallow the pills and take a hit
Sorry I'm not good enough to deal with your shit
Here comes the end
I can see it now
Darkness swallowing me
Numbness the death of me
But why do I wake up the next day?
Why couldn't the darkness stay?
That is where I wish to play
Where my fantasies become a reality
This is the death of me
Reality comes back
I think I'm going to crack
I just can't stay strong*
When I'm alone *my emotions show
So I pull the knife across my skin
Lift the bottle to my lips
Swallow the pills and take a hit
All of this just to deal with your shit
I want to die
Time to say goodbye
Farewell to all
Sorry I didn't have the strength to stay
But I guess it has to end this way
Suicide will be my final escape
As I take take my last breath*
I prepare for death
Here comes my eternal rest