Christmas Time and an update

First of all, an update. My parents still don't know about the as Physics and my teachers are now claiming no responsibility for it telling me that it was never on them. That had been a big stressor on me recently and with this happening just before Christmas sent me completely into a meltdown.

Now onto what's going on now. Christmas has been a roller coaster. Christmas time for me has never been great which for the past 6 years has sent me to relapse. This terrified me after all the progress I had made over the summer the fact that is could all go wrong over one day stressed me out. Christmas eve came and I broke down, I let everything get on top of me and did not think I would get through Christmas day. Christmas eve was full of arguments within my family and to be fair Christmas day was not much better. But... I have done it so far. I have not SH yet. one week to go before I go back to school and although I will still be just as stressed I won't be at home all day and that is an improvement. Tomorrow night I go out for a meal with my youth group so will be able to see my youth leader and hopefully talk about these things with her. This is if I pluck up the courage to speak to her. When I go back to school I have exams and then it is the count down to my real exams. And then the count down to when I move to university.
Life is moving very quickly at the moment and i almost can't believe it.