New Job

So I have just started a new job and am currently half way through it. It is event catering and this job is a 4 day event. Being new not knowing anyone is definetly not helping. Almost everyone here smokes and drinks.and it seems like that is the only way to socialise I don't drink or smoke so feel left out. I am also not as quick today while serving after having my confidence knock yesterday and I have gotten pretty good at knowing when people are talking about me behind my back and seeing my team doing that today has not helped. Ahhhhh. I am just finding it really hard but need to save to money so I can move out as soon as possible so can't quit.

On top of this while at a camp called Soul Survivor (a Christian youth camp) at one of through seminars about being a Christian at home as well as a festivals they went into a sub bit about giving things up. After the speaker talked about that for a bit we prayed to see if God was telling us to give anything up, the only thing that came to me was self harm. I know I should give it up, I know it is bad for me but I just don't know if I can give it up. So that is on my mind as well.

Sorry you the ramble.