All at once

So life is still winning at the moment. I am on holiday with my family at the moment with hardly any internet and no signal miles away from home and am hating every moment of it. On top of that things are still awkward between me any my dad. My ex-boyfriend and 'best' friend has started dating a girl who he used to go out with (this girl almost led him to comit suicide and if it was not for me and another friend he probably would not be here today) and there is nothing I can do about it because everything I do makes me look like a jealous ex-girlfriend. Also I have started having wierd dreams about my friend' dreams that I hope will never happen.

I think the only good thing that has happend is the fact I have not SH even with the break up. But yeah at the moment that does not feel like a big thing.

Sorry for the ramble just had to get it off of my chest.

Edit: I texted him earlier saying that I hope he is careful and just because I have not spoken to him for a bit I still cared about time. He then replayed saying "let's be honest we never really spoke anyway😂😂😂. R we good?"

So let's just say that was like the final nail in the coffin.