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Posted May 18th 2019 at 08:32 PM by SunShine2002
So I have not been here in a while and should probably explain why.
Life was going great, I was coming to the end of a long half term at school and for the first time in forever, I was excited about the upcoming holiday. I had a stable relationship with my boyfriend and was happy.
Then holiday came, 2nd day in I had a massive argument with my dad and walk out for the first time. The rest of the holiday I spent in my room not talking to anyone about what had happened, I isolated myself and felt awful because of it. The only good thing that happened that holiday is the fact I didn't relapse.
I went back to school and acted like everything was ok although I now know one of my friends thought that something had happened. Life carried on and I just continued to not talk to my dad. My birthday came and my dad gave me a hug which I think was the most awkward thing I have ever done and things are just not the same anymore.
Then about a week after my birthday (i.e yestrday/17th May) My boyfriend of 8 months and my best friend broke up with me saying that he saw no future in us being boyfriend-girlfriend but only as friends and that pretty much sent me over the edge, I spent most of the night crying and trying my very best not to self-harm. I then had to volunteer at my local town in which I saw his parents which did not help and sent me to the bathroom crying. I also don't know if I will make it through tonight without relapsing but maybe just writing that down here might help me stay clean.
But yeah things have not been great so if I am not on often at the moment that is why.
Sorry for that, rant over.
Life was going great, I was coming to the end of a long half term at school and for the first time in forever, I was excited about the upcoming holiday. I had a stable relationship with my boyfriend and was happy.
Then holiday came, 2nd day in I had a massive argument with my dad and walk out for the first time. The rest of the holiday I spent in my room not talking to anyone about what had happened, I isolated myself and felt awful because of it. The only good thing that happened that holiday is the fact I didn't relapse.
I went back to school and acted like everything was ok although I now know one of my friends thought that something had happened. Life carried on and I just continued to not talk to my dad. My birthday came and my dad gave me a hug which I think was the most awkward thing I have ever done and things are just not the same anymore.
Then about a week after my birthday (i.e yestrday/17th May) My boyfriend of 8 months and my best friend broke up with me saying that he saw no future in us being boyfriend-girlfriend but only as friends and that pretty much sent me over the edge, I spent most of the night crying and trying my very best not to self-harm. I then had to volunteer at my local town in which I saw his parents which did not help and sent me to the bathroom crying. I also don't know if I will make it through tonight without relapsing but maybe just writing that down here might help me stay clean.
But yeah things have not been great so if I am not on often at the moment that is why.
Sorry for that, rant over.
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I'm sorry to hear about the big argument with your dad and then later your boyfriend breaking up with you. It sounds like things must've hit you hard when they were going so well previously.
I hope that writing things out helped a bit
Posted May 19th 2019 at 02:53 PM by Celyn
